Posted by:
Big Sis
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Date: December 22, 2013 11:36PM
I have a much younger brother who I helped raise, and I was hopeful that he would turn out--ahem---a little more like me than like the rest of our TBM family. During his early and middle teens he loved for me to take him to the local cafe where he would order one of those candy-bar-in-a-cup drinks with a hint of coffee in it, and we'd play chess and talk philosophy, ethics, religion, etc. His mind seemed so open then.
But now the kid is 18 and as TBM as they come. I think he didn't want to hurt me by telling me directly that he now fully believes, so instead he quietly pulled away and that hurt even more. Now I learned that he is going to serve a mission, and it kills me. I already miss him, and now he'll be gone two full years. He will miss my wedding. Well, I guess I'll miss his too no matter when it happens, because I'm not worthy! That damn church does not support family. It supports itself at all costs, families be damned!