Posted by:
godtoldmetorun
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Date: December 30, 2014 10:43AM
Many people, when they are in the sunset of their lives, feel a need to make some sort of lasting impression on those who will be here when they are gone.
Someday, if we are blessed to live a long life (or even a short life where you will find your days measured), we will be in the exact place that your brother is.
My nevermo grandpa, whom I was never particularly close to, made an amazing effort to reach out to me and impart nuggets of wisdom into my mind and heart.
There were some things he said that I had to brush off..things that were a result of his dementia, his rigid Catholicism, and his troubled relationship with his own past.
As troubled and temperamental of a young woman that I was at that time, I found it in myself to brush off his verbal diarrhea. I regret many of the things I said and did in my youth...but I don't regret a single word nor action toward my grandpa in that vulnerable moment of his life.
My reward for my patience? He actually said many things that stuck...words that haunt me 10 years later.
This brother of yours has invested (presumably) 83 years of his life into believing that the Mormon Church is true. At this point, knowing that he's dying, he isn't going to let go of his belief in the Mormon understanding of heaven. His thinking is that he is doing a great service to your immortal soul by persuading you to go back to the church.
He's not in a place in his life where he can handle the evidence that the church, and everything it stands for, is a lie. He doesn't have enough time left on earth to go through the long process of mourning the loss of his Mormon faith, and the healing that must be done after. And he probably doesn't have the energy for it, either.
The last thing a person at the end of their life needs, is somebody to imply that they lived their life in vain.
And the last thing you need, is to have what might be the last conversation you have with your brother, to end in a fight. You don't want to carry that sorrow and regret into the end of your own life.
Anything he might say, let it roll off peacefully. Let your focus be on your happy memories together, and your gratitude for the love he showed you.
He is your brother first, and a Mormon second.
In the way you respond to his behavior, you are carving out your own legacy. And when you are in his place, that is how you will be remembered.