Posted by:
mightybuffalo
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Date: January 22, 2018 12:33PM
First, thanks for all being on here and to whoever created this site. When I feel downtrodden about everything I truly feel comforted here. Recovery is a great word to describe it.
So I ditched church yesterday to go skiing- pow day. Sorry, not sitting through 3 boring hours when I could score 1st tracks in powder up to my chest (they opened the backside of solitude just in time for me to wreck it).
Anyway, wifey went to church, did her calling, and was acting pretty upset when I got home. She wouldn't really talk to me. Eventually she just blurted out, "so when are you going to stop attending church altogether?" Ironically, I was on RFM when she asked. I set the computer aside so we could chat.
Long story short, it opened up an entire conversation on where I'm really at and I basically told her what I was planning on telling her come April when I graduate. That I'm only being 'active' in church now because I'm scared if I don't, BYU won't give me a degree and then so much for med school. I explained that I have found too much evidence against the truthfulness of the church (without diving into detail because she gets flustered easily when I bring up real evidence).
Then it got freaky. She brought up divorce. Said she didn't "sign up for this." Said she can't see herself having kids with me. I told her that I want to be with her, only if she can learn not to resent me or hate me for my beliefs, or lack thereof. And, that I would never resent her for hers. She cried then ended up telling me she doesn't want a divorce either but it will be really hard and she needs to talk to her friends and family. I told her I don't really care if she talks to them as long as SHE WAITS until AFTER I graduate to do so, and that we should keep it between her and I until then. To which she agreed.
Then I asked her if I could please show her the evidences I've found so she can either tell me I'm crazy or not. I said I don't want to convince you otherwise, but if you can convince me otherwise I would welcome the rebuttal. She said she did not want to look at it YET. So maybe soon she'll let me show her?
At one point she told me I shouldn't be looking at anti and I told her that I learned about joseph's young wives and wives that were already married on LDS.org then explained how such disrespect for women is ridiculous to me. She actually said something like, "you think that is hard for you? I'm a woman! Think about how difficult that is for me!" I said I know, that's why I'm surprised you've never questioned it.
Anyways, there was more discussion than what I detailed, we were up late talking. But, came out a lot sooner than expected.
Thoughts? Advice?