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namarod
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Date: December 07, 2018 09:58AM
Sorry if this is kind of a long post, but I want to share with you my story as a Temple Worker at the Manti Temple:
In 1997 I learned the truth about the Book of Abraham (BOA). This rocked my testimony and my whole foundation of Mormonism. I shared this with my TBM DW. At first, learning this troubling information really shook her up. Her family scared her and said that this information was just anti-Mormon propaganda and that Satan was trying to destroy her testimony. She bought into their fear-mongering and refused to look at anything not faith promoting again. I secretly continued to study the troubling aspects of Mormonism. My church activity went up and down during this time and I was really struggling spiritually.
One day in Priesthood Opening Exercises, the Bishop said there were some Temple Veil Worker positions open at the Manti Temple. I immediately raised my hand and volunteered. This was almost a knee jerk reaction on my part. My thinking was that the Temple is supposed to be the most sacred place on this earth. If the Church is really true, then working in the Temple would help me feel the Spirit. I also hoped that I would have spiritual experiences that will testify to me that the Church is true and will erase all my doubts.
The Stake President interviewed me and gave me a date to go to the Temple and start training. I showed up on a weekday evening. An elderly Temple Worker had me go into the Workers Lounge and study area. He gave me a printed and laminated copy of the Veil dialog. I had me give him my Drivers License to check it out. He gave me strict instructions to not take it out of the lounge or temple building. I had attended the Temple quite frequently, so I had the dialog at the Veil memorized, but now I had to learn the part that the Lord says and the dialog of the Veil Worker. I spent a couple of evenings memorizing my parts. I was tested and was deemed prepared to work at the Veil.
It was kind of strange how it worked. During this time, the temple had low attendance. In order to boost attendance, the Veil workers were assigned a later afternoon Endowment Session to attend. At the end of the session, the Veil workers would go first to the Veil. Once we passed through the Veil, then we would work at the Veil, either as the Lord or a Veil Worker: the one who takes the name slip, taps the mallet, and helps the patron with the Veil dialog. We would then help bring the rest of the patrons through the Veil. We would then stay after and help with the next two or three sessions, depending on the time of day.
I worked at the Temple two or three times a week, depending on my full time work schedule. Very quickly, working at the Temple became boring and unfulfilling. The old men who were the Veil Supervisors were usually cranky and I could tell that they'd rather be somewhere else. They usually rushed me and the other workers to get the patrons through the Veil quickly. I felt like I was herding sheep instead of people. I did not experience any significant spiritual experiences, even though I prayed to the Lord to please help me feel his Spirit while working at the Temple.
For about five months I kept trudging on. trying to be the best Veil Worker I could. I starting noticing that many of the names on the Name Slips the patrons gave me looked the same. One day I asked the Veil Supervisor about this. He nonchalantly said, "You're right. The Temple never has enough names for all of the ordinances done so we have to recycle them." I was pretty shaken up by his reply and asked him, "How can the Church justify this?" I also asked, "How can we say it's the work for the dead when we may be doing the same ordinances for the dead person over and over again?" He replied, "You have to understand that if we run out of names then our Temple attendance will plummet. We want to make sure that the members in our Temple District attend the Temple at least once a month." What could I say back? Really nothing. I was very emotionally shaken and I asked to leave early that night.
I went home and started researching this on the Internet. I came across this interview of Rauni Higley who was a Former Finnish Translator for the Church.
http://www.salamandersociety.com/interviews/raunihigley/ She worked full time for the Church. She left after discovering troubling issues which included the Temple Ceremony. She talks about how temple names were not just recycled at every Temple, but also that the same names were simultaneously used and recycled at every Temple around the world. She also brought up other troubling aspects of the Temple ceremonies. After reading this and other things I found on the Internet, I could not honestly work at the Temple anymore. I realized the whole Temple thing is just a big scam
The Temples had to provide names of the dead so that members would believe they were doing sacred temple ordinances for only that deceased person. I remember how I would sometimes read the name and the date of birth of that departed person and think about how special it was for me to provide him these special "saving" ordinances. After learning about recycling the names, I realized that the whole work for the dead thing is a big joke. The Temples had to provide and recycle names so that members could frequently attend. To attend, they have to have Temple Recommends. And to have Temple Recommends, they have to pay a full tithe. It has nothing to do with eternal ordinances or work for the dead. It's just a way to get members to pay their goddamned tithing so the Church can buy more commercial real estate, invest in stocks, build expensive / gaudy temples; and to provide six figure salaries and thousands of dollars of perks for its General Authorities. If the members don't pay and have their temple ordinances, then they risk losing their loved ones for eternity or at least that's what the Church wants them to believe. I can't think of a crueler scam than that!
I immediately made an appointment to see my Stake President. I asked to be released and gave some bullshit excuse about my health and conflicts with work. I didn't dare bring up the disturbing things I had found out. I also was not ready to have the "apostate" label put on me yet. After all of this, I only attended the temple when my DW dragged me there or for family occasions. For sure, finding out these disturbing things about the Temple and countless other issues led to my exit out of the Church. Eight years later, I publicly came out to my family about my disbelief and I became totally inactive. Seven years later, I officially resigned from the Mormon Church. And I do not miss at all attending the Temple!
Sorry for how long this is, but I hope you find my story interesting. Feel free to ask me any questions you want.