Posted by:
Mother Who Knows
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Date: October 31, 2017 02:41AM
Yes, the death oaths were real. I hate it when Mormons deny these ever took place. It's as if they are calling us liars! Why would we make that up, or "remember differently"?
I went back to the temple with my temple ex-husband, because he would have beat me, if I had refused anything he told me to do. I slit my throat, chest, and bowels with my thumb in the Los Angeles Temple, Oakland, Salt Lake, Provo, St. George, Hawaii, Logan temples, and it was the same in all of them.
The first time, I actually crossed my fingers, with my hand hidden under the robes, and cried silently in my mind to God: "God! I don't mean this! I don't mean this!" The Mormons got their way--I never told a soul about the temple secrets, nor did I ever discuss them with anyone, until one freeing day on RFM, 30 years later.
Do you know that they don't allow someone to go through the temple for the first time--without two "companions" assigned to sit on either side of them? I've seen that happen. I think I would have run out of there the first time, if my mother had not been sitting on one side of me, and my Sister-in-law on the other side.
I tried to locate my father on the other side of the room, but all the baker's hats looked alike. No wonder he and my mother never went to the temple! How could my father believe this junk--he's a doctor! He's intelligent! Dressed in a silly KKK costume!
BYW, you can go through the temple, without getting naked and anointed, and all that. Just go through "endowment sessions", and skip the other--what is it called? Not "the anointings", but something else. It's all gibberish, anyway.
As far as learning anything new goes--that's a hoax. I expected to gain new knowledge of God and Christ. Instead, it was just the same old Bible verses from Genesis, which I had read so often, that I had practically memorized all of it.
It is a "trauma"! Every time, I would get nauseated, and would have attacks of diarrhea, and have to leave the session a few times. The matrons were really mean, about my having to leave. They wouldn't let me sit on the aisle, or in the back, so I had to repeatedly crawl over women's knees, to get out. The stale air, the stink of old perfume and B.O., and the suffocating veil over my face, made me almost faint. A very unpleasant, creepy experience, that I regret was ever part of my life.