Date: November 29, 2017 11:06AM
I like you, cutekitty! I understand the "void", too. I'm the youngest in my family, and my parents and siblings are all dead. I sometimes become obsessed with old memories--especially at Christmas time--and I constantly have to snap my mind back into the present moment. I'm also "green in and out", which seems to be an unpopular mode for Mormons.
All of my Mormon "friends" shunned me when I resigned, and they are still not my friends. It takes a while to fully realize these Mormons have a dark side, and wouldn't make suitable friends, anyway. It isn't because of the God they worship, but because they are single-minded, in tune with the cult's agenda of recruiting new members all the time. They condone and protect pedophiles, woman-haters, and homophobics. IMO, they are full of hate towards apostates, athiests, agnostice, Blacks, and...I'm starting a very long Mormon hate-list.
You don't have to agree with a friend's religion. With my non-Mormon friendships, religion is a NON-ISSUE. Like your town-beautification group, friends are focused on what we are doing--hiking, skiing, playing tennis, book club, talking, etc., and just having fun together. My (few) friends and I leave politics and religion out of it, because we don't agree on those issues. People of other religions are more normal, and don't constantly talk about religion, the way Mormons do. It's because Mormonism is a CULT, and not a religion. Cult members are weird, and aren't very much fun, anyway. Let the Mormons shun and snark against each other--it really has nothing to do with us--it's just what Mormons do.
Mormons are raised with the notion that popularity is a Top Priority, because Mormons must be "every member a missionary" and bring in new converts. That's how to win friends in the Mormon cult: obey, and bring your friends and neighbors into the cult. A normal woman has 3-4 friends; a normal man has 2-3.
You are a cool person, and people like you, from what I know of you on RFM. Remember, all the Mormons you know are all deliberately trying to make you feel shunned, unpopular, and left-out. They are the ones left out of the new, great things you are discovering. Exercise can be a very positive thing! Good health and eating right isn't a priority with Mormons, it seems. They focus only on their WOW, but not beyond. I threw out most of my Mormon recipes, that contained too much fat and sugar--ugh. WTG! You changed your wardrobe! So did I, and that was fun! Changing your life for the better can be a lot of fun, really! You are doing great!