Date: February 25, 2018 04:33PM
I don't really believe in Mormonism anymore and have been distancing myself from it for the past few years, but my ultra-TBM upbringing has warped my view of reality so much, I can't even have normal, healthy relationships with people.
I got into contact with my birth family a while ago and have built a relationship with them. They're really generous, accepting, hard-working people and I love them.
BUT...my lingering Mormon views have caused me to internally judge them really harshly.
All I can think about is "omg my birth brother has tattoos" or "look at him, he's drinking beer" or "my fourteen year old sister is dressing SO inappropriately wow" or "they're shopping on Sunday" or "they drink coffee."
My birth parents live together (unmarried) and I'm constantly reminding myself of how wrong it is, even though their relationship is better than anyone in my divorce-ridden, emotionally abusive TBM family.
It's so pathetic and I absolutely HATE how I have to fight this mentality 24/7.