Posted by:
Amyjo
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Date: October 12, 2018 10:50PM
My Declaration of Independence is officially official. Sometimes I need to remind myself that they don't get to define who I am because I left a cult.
They're still in the CULT. When I think back on my experience of attending my brother's funeral last month I was reminded how much shaming goes into being a Mormon, including among family.
The years of dysfunction and separation showed up clearly in the family dynamics among those present.
If only they could see themselves the way others do. Maybe they wouldn't have such a chip on their shoulders all of the time.
So much arrogance and smugness with self-righteousness. Funerals were never meant to be such stiff-necked affairs.
I let loose, I really did. Just being myself, and feeling free enough to observe without reproach. I sang without reserve. The flowers I brought were the most colorful ones there - my brother deserved a nice sendoff. God knows he worked himself to death.
Even a simple gesture like the flowers was met with suspicion and distrust. I am his sister, for golly sakes. What is the problem?
Mormons are so caught up in their pseudo religion they've forgotten how to love, laugh, and just be. They don't get to define me anymore, though they tried. I fought back, and this time I won.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 10/13/2018 03:32AM by Amyjo.