Posted by:
redpill
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Date: January 14, 2019 11:05PM
ajn,
How do you leave? You already have. Take a deep breath and realize you are more intelligent and strong than everyone in the church you have ever met. You are more honest with yourself than the prophet of their church. You have broken out of mental and psychological prison of the church. Give yourself some time to absorb your new freedom. Just relax. It is ok to do a little faking as your mind adjusts to your new reality. Don't do anything rash. You want to be smart about your plans. You have inherent in you everything you need to succeed in life.
I know you want to scream and the rage and pain can be unbearable. Endure this and it will make you stronger. You must build your inner strength. You will need to get to know the real you. It is like being born again and you are seeing the "real" world for the first time. You are now part of humanity, welcome to the club.
I went through this at age 33, married with 4 children, wasted 2 years of my life on a mission. (now I'm 47, (male)). I wish I had figured it out earlier as you have.
Don't expect to have any validation from your family. You won't be able to convince them of anything. Arguing is pointless. They likely won't understand. I would keep any explanations of why you don't believe vague and concise when and if you decide to confront them.
And remember, this is just my opinion from my point of view. You now have to learn to develop your own opinion if you haven't already. Your opinion is just as valid as any human on this earth. You have to learn to decide for yourself what you want in this life, what will make you happy. If you discover this, you have found the secret of life. You have to learn that your life purpose is not to please your parents or your family. You have to learn that just because someone doesn't approve of your choices, that is their problem. You can still listen to people you respect and use this as you please, but you are under no obligation to follow anyone's path but your own.
My mother broke down and cried when I told her I don't believe. It took me a long time to realize that it was her own belief causing her pain. It is not my obligation to play along with her belief so she wouldn't feel pain. Their church teachings and belief cause that. Again, not your doing or something that you can control. No need to feel responsible.
If you are inclined to attend college, I would plan to go to a non-church college. If your parents aren't willing to assist you with money, you can apply for loans and grants and get a job. I was amazed at the amount of assistance there was for my children. There was some free money, some no interest money, and some with interest, depending on how much you need and your financial status.
https://studentaid.ed.gov/sa/fafsaIt is my opinion, that going into debt for your education is the best investment you can make in yourself.
Congratulation ajn on taking control of your life, for being honest with yourself. This is the bravest thing a person can do.