Posted by:
exminion
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Date: March 16, 2019 09:39PM
I know what you mean, Done and Done. I was very emotional, creative, musical, and poetic, when I grew up, in California, away from most of the Mormon garbage. I loved deeply, too, and the two men I truly loved were both Atheist. My parents made me date Mormons, and sent me to BYU, but I never had that deep, soul-connection with Mormons. I married two Mormons, consecutively, and gave my life over to them, as I was instructed to do. They were both so cruel and horrible, that I never wanted to see them again. I feel that way about Mormonism as a whole. I never looked back.
Yet--I'm very attached to my children and grandchildren. They come first in my life! I'm still in love with the two Atheist men, but only as friends. They are happily married to normal women, and I was a Mormon fanatic. All's well that ends well.
I never bore my testimony--ever--even when Mormons tried to force me into it. I didn't like to pray, either. I would say, "For me, my testimony and prayers are private". Doesn't the Bible say to "pray in secret"?
I still weep when I see any dead creature, or anyone or anything in pain. I will not kill anything. I capture flies, spiders, and moths, carefully put them in a jar and take them out of the house, then let them go. By daughter is the same way. Any life, no matter how "insignificant" has meaning. Just try to create a gnat, with tiny little wings, eyes, a brain. Great scientists and all the knowledge of mankind can't create even one living cell.
Like Cl2, I felt no loss, when I left the cult. It left no void in my life that needed to be filled with something else. Yeah, I felt relief, too!
Getting Mormonism out of my life was a GAIN. My life has more meaning, more love, beauty, and intensity! A poem and even a dumb movie can make me cry, but religion failed to move me (except for anger, LOL.)