I remember that after I went inactive, after several years, I didn't have the same mindset I had before. I had to get space from their indoctrination every week and then I could see them for what they were, but until I stepped away, I wasn't able to see through it all. It was such a huge relief.
I've definitely stepped away and can see what was going on the entire time. The 'leaders' know exactly what they are doing and do not care about any life that gets destroyed. My mind is still healing though i must admit but i think that my brain is functioning a lot more properly than before. I just keep thinking ' what the hell did i live through?'