Posted by:
Beth
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Date: June 11, 2020 11:23AM
THANK GOD(s).
But I would sit there an think, "I don't think this is of God."
One of many things that made we wonder WTF was going on around me. It was so strange and unconvincing and I thought something was wrong with *me* because I never felt moved by the spirit to do anything but sit there BORED AS HELL. When I fell asleep, I'd get an elbow in the side. (Thanks, Mom!) She never got happy, either. But she would sit there and silently weep. She was looking for something to ease her pain. She was in a lot of pain. I recognized that, and I tried to go along. I think she thought that the crap things that have happened in her life, and there have been *a lot* of crap things that no one should have to shoulder, I think she thinks they are due to some fault of her own. She had stopped going to church and was an activist for social justice and was pro-choice. She married an atheist (my father). They divorced when I was seven. Backsliding. She thought these things had happened because she was backsliding. So, BOOM - total 180º.
She seems happier now. She's given up searching for a "church home," and has decided to worship in her own way. When she starts testifying to me, I listen *unless* she tells me how belief in god would improve *my* life. That's when I say, "Mom - I love you. Let's talk later about something else."
There is a whole *world* full of things to talk about besides religion. I think she's getting that.
But yeah, I can't unsee that girl's panties. ::shudder:: She should have worn a longer skirt.
Oh, an aside: Do you know about Father Divine? There's a crazy documentary about him. It's good!
http://www.fatherskingdommovie.comAnyway, I had a "Father Divine skirt." They had a restaurant in University City, and the food was soooooo good and inexpensive. They had a dress code, so Mom bought us Father Divine skirts. "Beth, wanna go to Father Divine's for dinner? Okay - put on that skirt."