Date: June 07, 2021 11:34PM
Good day fellow post and exmormons. Coming back to say hello, many thanks, and quite possibly fair well.
I first started posting here fresh from my awakening close to six years ago. That was around the time my mind first began to unwravel the lies I had been living.
I was scared for my sanity. My mother had been diagnosed with schizophrenia earlier in my life and I was worried my mind was headed down the same path. A path where I would slowly become a shell of the person I once was. Why wouldn't I question my sanity? Doubt and sceptism is a moral failing. Mental illness is also a moral failing, or so I was taught.
I was also worried my new found knowledge would destroy my marriage. My most prized treasure, the relationship with my wife, would be irreparablly harmed. For a time it was damaged. I became scaredhusband. It took a few years to build trust. The wonderful people on this board helped me. Lovingly guided me. Helped me grow. I will forever be indebted to your kindness and empathy.
Update time I suppose. Life has been getting progressively better and better. Not only has my wife stayed with me over the years since I left. She has been willing to keep the relationship over church. I have been perfectly content to live the rest of my life this way. All things have come to a head recently, she has had her own realization. Yes! It finally happened. She is distancing herself from TSCC. Even going as far as to say she is done.
After years of playing the long game I can finally live life unteatherhed to an organization I despise. My children will grow up being loving and empathetic humans. It's amazing how much better they are at it than I am already!
With all this I feel like I am finally graduating and can start a new chapter in my life. I'm sending all my love to you kind thoughtful and beautiful people. You gave me hope, you gave me a place to start, after I had nothing and look at me now! It brings a literal tear to my eye.
Best wishes to you all.
Edit: I fat fingered post. I am not longer scaredhusband. I am living.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 06/07/2021 11:35PM by scaredhusband.