Date: February 19, 2012 08:23PM
yah, "my" LDS mission was a raging success, because it was my express ticket out of trance of MORmONISM, after seeing the pettiness, deceit, and pure EVIL that LDS inc really runs on! IF ONLY I HAD TAKEN IT MUCH SOONER!
it was also a success in the eyes of the Church /LDS INC.
because I baptized some ppl. and NOT necessarily because of Leadershit ( spelling intended) positions that I may or may not have obtained. OF course my friend who managed to become an AP would disagree with me, but thats just the difference between our personalities. Me being raised to silently and dutifully bear any burden of the church that might be thrust on my shoulders with out any hint of complaint or the slighest question about any rewards in return. After all, going back to the story of the pre mortal existence, all good MORmONS know what kind of person is concerned first and foremost with getting rewards ( SATAN! SATAN! SATAN!) Him, being raised with how he could benefit from any situation as his FIRST concern. Yah it was amazing how they made him ASSistant to the president in such short order. Sure it was sickening listen to him brag about it, but there was no time to be bothered by it because I had work to do, stuff like actually converting ppl! Instead of being a chessy ass big shot!
Funny thing, even years later, even as they made him a church leader, even as I was losing interest in the church let alone interest in being a leader in the church, my *friend* was still the same cheesy ass phony LYING POS that he had always been, in
fact it seemed like he was getting worse instead of getting better! Seeing how revisionist and phony the church really was, one day I was forced to ask myself why I really wanted to be a member, and as well to wonder how long it would be before LDS INC gave my cheesy ass phony POS friend an even higher leaderSHIT calling and in turn took away the only thing I really put any stock in any more far as the church was concerned, namely my convert.
Well, I didnt have to wait long. LDS INC promoted my *friend* again while they tried to excomm my convert over some very contrived BS, ironically my LDS leaderSHIT upwardly mobile friend had done far worse but somehow he was designate company man for LDS Inc.
I finally learned that I would never be able to work hard enough &/or LIE, CHEAT, STEAL hard enough to be a good MORmON
in the truest sense of MORmONISM, and that even if I could, I did not want to.
Yah I hated my mission, and IMO only a real MORmON/ LOSER would have to spend much time trying to convince themselves that it really was something good/ anything but a horrendous waste. ( I had a real life that I left behind for that LDS BS, maybe some ppl dont, my fault, I was fucking stupid enough to do it ! )
At best its like a successful cancer surgery.
sure I am glad to be rid of the cancer, but since I really did finally gain the ability to think above & beyond the poisoning of MORmONISM, I am well aware of the fact that I did
n't HAVE TO HAVE the mental cancer known as MORmONISM and that my life would have been better off with out having to spend? WASTE 2 decades of prime time adult living trying to dump the horrible disease known as MORmONISM.