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anon for this ya'll
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Date: October 03, 2010 05:28AM
I'm sure there is something wrong with me. It's three in the morning, and I can't leave my room with nothing much for me on the outside anyway.
I used to be in line. In the Church's line, in my parents line (and the father was the school's principal, so I had to be within their best behavior as well). I've grown up as something, as some THING, and after kissing everyones ass and being so nice to everyone just to make sure it keeps someone else's reputation and job in line...
..I WANT THE GOD DAMN WORLD TO BURN AROUND ME! I WANT COMPLETE ANARCHY AND CHAOS, WITH NO FUCKING ORDER! I WANT TO SEE MAN KIND AT IT'S MOST BASIC INSTINCT, NO MORE BULLSHIT RULES, NO MORE SOCIAL FORMS, SURVIVAL THROUGH DESTRUCTION IS THE ONLY FUTURE I WANT!
Am I some sort of radical? Maybe I'm just going crazy? I don't affiliate myself with any sort of political group. Shit, I'm official not even a Mormon anymore. Should I seek help? Maybe having some friends would help? Maybe getting out of the oppressive grip of family members while having to lie about my church status would be a positive?
Where do I go?!