Posted by:
AngelCowgirl
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Date: January 22, 2011 09:45PM
I made the mistake of telling DH about the research I was doing, and some of what I found. I tried to bring up tithing and the whole splitting the paycheck thing to allow me the agency to choose whether or not to tithe. He said no way - 'tithing is a law from the Lord', blah blah blah... He is now totally freaked out.
He said he was very hurt (as if this was a personal attack on him) and that “our whole marriage is based on a lie.” - indicating that he never would have married me if he’d known I would ever doubt. He says I should just take everything on faith and that he is willing to risk that it’s all true. He made some digs about how I “never was spiritual” (there is a difference between spiritual and religious!) and that he is “all alone” now, having to raise our kids in the gospel by himself with no support. I was like, “You think YOU’RE alone? Try being me right now!”
Anyway, he is walking around like he is shocked and depressed, and basically not talking to me. I think I might have to stay active in TSCC just to keep my marriage intact, but I know he will never fully trust me because he knows I'll just be faking it. Guess I shouldn't have mentioned that I can fake anything, huh? ;)