Jesus Smith, I am more than happy to share my complete story. Here are some previous posts, if it helps. http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,3254,3254#msg-3254 http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,7032,7032#msg-7032 http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,9382,9382#msg-9382 http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,10538,10538#msg-10538 These posts have a lot of holes in my story, so
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Good job man, being in an extremely similar situation, I know EXACTLY what you're going through. I'm stoked for you that you have the balls to stick up to your parents. I obviously don't know you or your family, but depending on how TBM they are, you will definitely be experiencing some pretty brutal guilt and shame for a while. I'm here to tell you that it's temporary. You are a man with a plan;
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The past month or two, most of my posts were depression-based, confused rants about how I canceled my mission and how hard it was dealing with the guilt and shame from my family and the church. At one point, I was even considering trying to stay close to the church, just so I could feel accepted and "happy" again. That has changed over the past little while. I understand I still have
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Well, Ivy, it sounds like you have your shit figured out. Your boyfriend sounds like a typical, brainwashed, confused mormon (sorry if that sounded rude) but it's just funny how I was basically the same way your boyfriend was a few months before I was supposed to go on my mission. It's only been a few months, but I've finally started realizing that staying home was one of the best decisions I've
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That's a really good question. For me, it was extremely recently. I was about to do the whole mission thing, when I started questioning the beliefs of the mormon church. The church never really did anything harmful or destructive to me, nor do I have any stories of the terrible things the church did to me. In fact, the church was actually really good for me. It gave me a sense of comfort and dire
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I'm with JoD3:360- It makes me feel bad for complaining about my life. I couldn't imagine going through what the people of Pakistan are going through. I work for a company run by Pakistani Muslims- great people. I am very good friends with them. They are majorly contributing to the relief and aid for victims of the flood in Pakistan. Makes me want to help.
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First of all, it makes me smile to read your story because I know I know i'm not alone, and you're not alone either. I'm going through the same thing, brother. I applaud you for having the balls to stand up to your parents and stick to what you believe and what you have studied and researched. As for the whole dealing with your parents thing, just keep doing what you're doing. Don't stop searc
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*shaking head* Stories like that make me sick. It's so sad. Ruins lives because of stupid, selfish desires. That is some crazy s***
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I like that. You and I think alike.
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I like and agree with what mick said: Just because you have the new found freedom, doesn't mean you have to do it all the time. I also like and agree with what The exmo formerly known as Br. Vreeland said: Moderation people, moderation. As said before, if you are showing signs of alcoholism, you need to get help and make sure alcohol is not taking over your life in a negative manner. If y
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Go to USU, we can hang out! I'll be a junior there next fall. I'm gonna need some exmo friends to chill with. The few semesters I've been there, I've noticed that a large portion of the students there are mormon, but there is enough diversity of non mormons to compensate. Just depends on who you choose to associate yourself with, obviously. USU is a pretty good school, a lot of fun can be had up
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Dude! (or chick?) I am basically in the same situation you are! Just breathe and read this slowly... I just very recently stayed home from my mission, I learned so much about the church, I "left" (or, more or less I am rejecting the beliefs), feeling as though it would be liberating and amazingly freeing. I still go through days where I think "fuck this, fuck utah, etc. etc...&q
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I dated a girl over the summer that actually had a big influence on me questioning my beliefs and pursuing my doubts with the church. She never tried to "de-convert" me or anything, she was really conscious of my religion, and was just a good example to me as far as using logic and reason, and feeling good about questioning and not blindly following. She and her family used to be TB
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I know a few super cool mormons. Actually, my bishop is one of the coolest mormons i've ever met. He's a young bishop, I think he's 28 or 29, but he just understands. He and I would skip sunday school and go to the gas station and get mountain dew, then talk about our problems with the church. No joke. He is a super bad ass guy, he is more of a friend than a bishop. He obviously still believes in
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So, just an update from my last post, The past few weeks I have been struggling with overwhelming guilt and shame from my family and community because I called off my mission, and at this point, I am well on my out of the Mormon church. Things have been off and on this past week, one day I'm super excited about a whole new way of thinking about life and how I am my own person, not a product of a
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You're very smart. I can tell you have a good grip on how the mormon culture is, and what it's all about, and that you are bright enough to understand what it is and what it does. I wish my eyes had been opened at your age. It would've saved me a lot of hurt. As for the whole judgment thing, I know it's hard living in Utah, you are definitely a minority, but as people have said before in this
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haha not necessarily would they see me coming out of walmart, but i've had a few experiences where i'll be in my church clothes and I would run to walmart to pick up some necessities, come home and unload the groceries out of my car when my neighbors are coming home from church. I got the nastiest looks ever. it was funny.
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No offense, but your sister sounds like a cold hearted bitch. At least from what I've seen, kids that grow up in such a strict household with overly religious parents are always the ones that are more likely to willingly rebel. It gets to a point where enough is enough, and they start throwing their parents' belief systems out the window because they realize how terrible it's made their life. Lik
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1. I'm not positive, but I can only assume that realtors only work on Saturdays 2. Most local stores and supermarkets are closed on sundays. Only national corporations are open sundays, and yes, people do look shamefully down on you if they see you coming out of walmart with some groceries on a sunday. It's happened to me a few times. 3. Yeah, pretty much. They may not say anything to you,
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you can't be serious! hahaha that would definitely count as one of the most bad ass things i've heard all week
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Growing up, my family did it all as well. My parents' got divorced, and my mom was insistent on FHE, family prayer & scripture reading every night, mutual, scouts (I am an eagle scout because my mom is obsessed with her sons getting eagles, so I complied even though I hated every minute of scouts) home teaching, ward activities, everything. I now realize that doing all those things did absolu
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hahaha! That's probably the most bad ass thing i've heard all day, possibly all week
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hahaha that makes me almost want to go to the temple just so i can see hot eve
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Thanks everyone. Again, your advice is extremely valued and it gets me through the day. I take every word and each bit of advice seriously. I will keep posting. Thank you
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My best friends' mom is going through the same thing I am as far as feeling guilty and shunned and alone. I have a few non mormon friends, but they don't really know a lot about the church and they don't really know what I'm going through.
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Hey everyone, sorry I keep crying to the board every time I have a personal issue, but honestly everyone here that has given me advice has literally helped me get through the day some days. Anyway, like I had said in previous posts, my parents and family are laying the guilt on me, trying to be nice and supportive, but it comes out as attacks and huge guilt trips. Some days I've even trie
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Thank you everyone so much for your advice and kind words! Last night when I posted this, I was on the verge of tears depressed, my life right now is pretty shitty and the guilt is so overwhelming. Reading all these posts gives me hope and I am so grateful to have a community that supports me and is cheering me on!
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As a lot of you may know, I recently chose not to serve a mission and take a long look at the mormon church and why I was having so many doubts. I was talking to my mom, whom after many hours of explaining to her why I don't believe the church is true, she was accusing me and attacking me for telling her what I believe and why I believe it. She kept on saying things like "I can tell
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So, I have just called off my mission this past Tuesday. This past week has been a crazy, emotional, wild ride after breaking the news to my family and friends. It's been liberating, but depressing at the same time. My whole life is going a completely new direction, and it is exciting, but scary at the same time as well. At this point, since it is the middle of the semester, I am currently se
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you have the right to refuse anything the church asks you to do. although it seems that you would feel guilty for refusing to speak in church, which wouldn't surprise me because thats what the church does: they make you feel guilty for something you don't want to do or feel comfortable doing.
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