I saw a leaked sealing on youtube. Not anything like a Catholic wedding that is for sure. The faces were blurred out so I didn’t see any facial expressions. When I first joined I had stars in my eyes that one day I would be sealed in the Temple and have beautiful pictures and a video with music of me standing outside the SLC Temple in a gorgeous but modest dress. You know the types of videos Iâ
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I resigned about a year in to being a member of the church. I was about to receive my endowment but never did. However, I have seen the videos by newnamenoah that shed some light on things I didn’t experience in the Temple since I left before I could. I had a limited use recommend. I know when you get sealed you have to be in the Apron and “baker’s hat”. All the videos on the internet of
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I resigned about a year in. I actually had just talked to the Bishop about receiving my endowment and was going to be preparing for it soon. However, I couldn’t ignore all the doubts I had anymore even if I had fallen in love with a missionary. I knew I couldn’t go inside that Temple and make “sacred covenants” that I believed to be a sham after studying and reading and then hungering to
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Just to clear a few things up... I am aware it wasn’t the fact he was Mormon that made him so great. It was the things we shared together even while being on his mission that made me fall in love. The love letters for one. I’m sure the MP would have loved to see those.
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Sounds like what I went through womackdude except I was the “she” in the situation and I’m pretty sure the MP got wind that we had fallen in love but since I resigned and returned to the Catholic faith of course it was a huge no no. He married a TBM. Sometimes I light a candle and say a prayer for him. I hope he’s happy but I can never forget him.
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I read the BOM several times and it came to pass... I could not gain a true testimony.
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A lot of people say that JS got his idea for the endowment ceremony from freemasonry. My grandfather was a freemason but he died when I was so young it never occurred to me to ask any questions about the organization. However, I did get a hold of his freemasonry book that I found in storage and yes, the endowment ceremony is freakishly compareable to the freemasonry ceremony. How did JS come up w
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I do agree about the fraud part. I also agree this kind of pain can fall on anyone regardless of beliefs. I am in therapy because being married to a narcissist who was also an addict did a number on me and gave me PTSD. However, I feel the church had a major impact on my ex decision to choose someone else and that caused me a great deal of pain and guilt that I was not good enough. They also
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I was his convert. I fell in love and so did he. However, I just couldn’t be the TBM he wanted me to be and resigned and returned to the Catholic faith. I was five years older. However, we still fell in love. He was 20. I was 25. When he returned from his mission we talked but I could tell things had changed. He told me he loved me one night and then the next day there were pictures on FB... he
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