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SusieQ#1
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Date: August 26, 2013 03:35PM
I was a young woman convert, not BIC, however, I know the power of the automatic thinking scripts that can be very difficult to change! I needed to change my thinking.
I don't know if this would work for you, however, I'll share a little about what I did.
I have posted how I Got Myself UnMormonized - by deleting and changing the automatic thinking scripts from several decades in the LDS Church.
I actually wrote down all of those scripts and make a point of changing my thinking and clicking them off, one by one. I go back and review my list from time to time .. usually get a giggle as I'm so far beyond that now. But..it takes TIME!
Here is a short excerpt from that long post that I review from time to time. I had over 50 thinking scripts that I was determined to change while I maintained logic, reasoning and self respect.
Then, I determined I was going to do it with a sense of humor. That was the easy part. I love to laugh and have fun. It's part of my natural personality that I could use to my advantage.
There was no way I was going to take Mormonism so seriously that leaving it would take anything away from me! I was going to be the adult, not the child answering to and reporting to the father figure in the religion.
Here are just a few of the Mormon Scripts I changed my thinking about:
1. I could shop and buy anything and go anywhere on Sunday. No one cared and I did not care who saw me.
2. There was no requirement to say another prayer in the proper form again;no need to bless the food, or pray in secret either. I could pray or meditate if I wanted-- anywhere and anytime I wanted , but it was my choice, on my terms and in my own private way. My experiments with prayer were dismally disappointing, so I decided to rely on my own good sense and research instead!
3. I did not have to read, study, ponder, pray about the Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants, Bible or any of the Mormon scriptures ever again. There was no such thing as "anti-Mormon" literature that I must avoid. The whole Internet and libraries were open to me. I could read anything with no fear. No book had a "bad spirit" -- that was just plain ridiculous and silly!
4. Prayer does not establish fact. Praying about the Book of Mormon to determine it is true is just plain silly. This is circle thinking. We know it's true but we must pray to know it's true. Say what? True .....what? After some study of religions and their history, it was all true God Myth!
5. I did not need to take the Ensign (or any other church magazine) and read it. The prophet's message was useless to me.
6. I did not have to attend church at any time for anything. Sacrament meetings were not of any interest to me anymore or anything else. Besides, I found the whole idea of so many people (long time friends and relatives) repeating their mantra's (IKNOWTHECHURCHISTRUE) so funny, I would not be able to keep a straight face ! Why didn't that bother me before? Hmmm. Time to do more thinking!
7. There was no such thing as "feeling the spirit" that was anything but warm fuzzies because people want to fit in and be accepted. It's the normal emotional connection to our personal experiences. II could "feel the spirit" of anything, or anywhere. It was not an exclusive to Mormonsm.. It was just part of human nature. Everyone "feels the spirit" , for instance, when the national anthem is sung, or a flag goes by or I see my kids do some kind of performance in school, I see a sunset that is gorgeous, and on and on and on. It's the normal emotional response to something beautiful, something/someone we love.
8. I did not have to have "callings". No more visiting teaching, or any other assignments. Whew! Done with that merry-go-round of busy work! I was going to be in charge of my calendar! I scheduled what I wanted to do, where I wanted to go. And did I get busy!
9. I did not have to report to anyone about anything. How nice! No more phone calls checking up on me! No more invasive interviews. I was so done with that!
10. I was not bound by some belief there were prophets or specially inspired leaders. These Mormon leaders put their pants on one leg at a time just like I did, and they certainly did not know me, neither did most of them even pay attention to what I said, let along respect my wishes, so I was not about to give in to their imagined discerning powers or any other powers or authority over me! And, NO. I did not have a problem with authority, but too many of them had a problem with their imagined authority throwing a fit or threatening me! I was not going to be a target for that absurd behavior ever again!
11. I could eat anything or drink anything I wanted. The Word of Wisdom was pointless nonsense that was not about health (scientific evidence shows other wise!) but only a rule for "obedience" as a programming technique to get people to pay tithing to go to the temple! Besides, it has never been lived by the Mormons as written in D&C 89 anyhow. Time to add more foods and drinks to my grocery list! That was FUN!
Another system I used to change my thinking, which changed my life was using Positive Affirmations.
(There is a lot of info on line about this system.)
You also may want to consult with a counselor/therapist to deal with what is going on with you.
Sometimes, it helps to change our environment in anyway we can.
For a long time, I didn't want any visual reminders, so I changed my driving routes.
I know how hard this process can be. It's very different for everyone.
My best wishes to you.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 08/26/2013 03:38PM by SusieQ#1.