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lush
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Date: January 09, 2014 02:50AM
While going through old boxes tonight I found one labeled "church" my eye's lit up.
it has been 14 year's since I went up in flames crashing and burning my failed mission attempt. Since that time I have rid myself of all thing's lds and then tonight boom! feeling a bit nostalgic.
The first thing I came across was a letter written by my mother that was given to me on the day I went to the MTC. Our relationship has never been the same since that day. Don't get me wrong we still speak but the damage and disappointment caused by that day week and month still burns deep in our relationship. In the letter she says she's very proud of me, something she hasn't said since. She ends the letter by telling me I have a great ability to see and accept people for who they are and that it will help me immensely on my mission. While it didn't help me there it has helped me through every day life. I will keep this letter it has meaning.
Next I found 5 or 6 church books that included the likes of "marvelous work and wonder" and " miracle of forgiveness" apparently I was fond of the latter. As I sat and read through all the parts of the book I highlighted and marked I had to laugh. Funny what I saw as important and significant things back then. I am however a bit disturbed by the amount of yellow highlighter used in the chapter "crimes against nature" I obviously had a problem in that department!
Last was my temple clothes. I pulled them out of my nice little white bag and looked them over. I only wore them once so they are in pristine condition. Most the items wouldn't fit as I could only wish I was as skinny as I was at 19. I put on my bakers cap went to the mirror and cracked a smile. it is all rather silly looking at it from the outside in. My apron was very nice hand stitched leaves and all made by my grandmother if I recall correctly. Question is what to do with all this? A part of me says throw it away but another part says keep it after all I wouldn't have had my blast from memories past tonight had I round filed it a decade so ago. I get both sides. Getting ride of everything lds in ones life can be liberating but keeping things as reminders and proof can be okay too. So what did you do with your old temple gear?
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 01/09/2014 03:02AM by lush.