I was think about the whole nonsense of:

"voting" support for other lds members in their callings.

This is a serious lobotomy moment if you look at it this way:

I'm voting to sustain and support a person as appropriate for a calling....Yet

I don't know their qualifications for said calling,
I did not interview them,
I did not pray for them or about them being in said calling,

In other words I am totally ignorant about their calling until I am told about it at the pulpit on Sunday and yet:

I'm supposed to raise my arm to the square sustaining them???

This is truly crazy and insane. It's like I'm an accessory to the crime or to whatever this person does. This can't be an accidental thing the church does. Its a deliberate act to ensare you it to agreeing and supporting whatever your leader does. So if a pedophile is chosen for a calling....guess who shoulders some of the responsibility? I really feel like crap when I think about this.

This is totally messed up...so why did I do it? Why did I go along and raise my arm to the square?

Why did you do it?

Yet another violation of trust...

I stopped raising my arm if I didn't want to sustain, but never did "vote no"..

I was voted down for a calling I received once. It was the previous bishop I had when I received my membership back that disagreed with me having the calling.

I had to talk further with bish. He spoke with SP and it was still ok'd. The prev bish then went to a 70 and Elder Michelson decided I could not have the calling.

The man that replaced me was a little po'd . He new about my past, but questioned where was the forgiveness. Obviously the bish didn't forgive.

Wow. That is incredible! Thanks for sharing that.