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wendell
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Date: February 18, 2011 04:15PM
I was going through some of my stuff recently, and I came across something that I wrote several years ago when I was still trying to come to terms with my sexuality and my feelings about the church. It's so interesting to read this now since my life is so drastically different than it was back when it was written.
Anyway, here goes:
The Price of Admission
by: Wendell
Temptation’s tough to just forsake.
Decisions made are hard to take,
Perfection’s easier to fake,
The price of admission’s just too high.
Acknowledgement is such a shock,
Poor choices are so hard to block,
I put my conscience back in hock,
The price of admission’s just too high.
Denying things I’ve done is wrong,
Potential risk is way too strong,
So, I pretend and move along,
The price of admission’s just too high.
My family could not take the blow.
They truly do not need to know,
So I put on a righteous show.
The price of admission’s just too high.
Deceit makes for a rocky road,
It goes against my moral code.
But I just grin and bear the load,
The price of admission’s just too high.
From truth I’ve learned how to retreat.
No exit marked for easy street,
I’ll hide the facts ‘til life’s complete.
The price of admission’s just too high.
My guilt cannot be overblown,
I’ll bear the hurt and pain alone,
I cannot face the great unknown,
The price of admission’s just too high.
What’s right and wrong I know quite well,
But there’s no way I’d ever tell.
I’d simply rather burn in Hell.
The price of admission’s just too high.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/18/2011 04:16PM by wendell.