Posted by:
luminouswatcher
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Date: September 19, 2010 10:55AM
One of the smartest things I did (by luck, not by design) was to communicate with DW that I loved her very much and I would support her in her desired path, no matter what it was. We were able to talk about how I knew she was scared at the change, but I was also able to communicate I was more scared, and that I no longer had the comfort that there was anything after this life, that this life was all that I believe we have because that is all I have evidence of. I also told her how difficult this would be (to support her choices) because I believe, and have much evidence to support it, that a belief in mormonism is not truly benign and comes at a great cost, who's effect and affect is completely determined by the "luck of the draw" with respect to who the local leaders are. Just wanting something to be true (eternal families morg style) does not make it so, even if you want and wish for it very badly.
I was so lucky. This diffused the situation enough that it was no longer adversarial. Our marriage as a team was put back on track, and after a couple of weeks, my DW was able to accept the evidence we had both lived through and her "shelf" finally fell. The interesting thing is, she is not driven by evidence, logical conclusion and rational argument. Those processes are only a very small part of the way she processes information and comes to a conclusion. She also has to make sense of the feelings and their relationships, something I know exists, but I don't fully understand. What I am trying to say, that her small journey for us to reach the same point was very different, and it was impossible for me to force the conclusion that I would have liked, because I don't understand all of the variables, but I do understand if you think you can manipulate complex systems to a desired state with any accuracy you are more deluded than the mormon faithful.
I have observed since, that mormon couples often don't communicate, they just talk at each other. The culture does not permit you to talk about doubts and fears, and it does not matter who you marry if you go through all of the mormon pharisee rituals. Not a good recepie for success if you do not have the artificial manipulations of the pretended truth box of mormonism.
The Lakota people (commonly called the Sioux Indians) have the concept of a best friend that is a very special connection that is stronger than brotherhood and is very much bound to honor (same sex individuals in a hetero context). If you use such a concept, but apply it to a husband and wife relationship, you get what I think exists in all long term and happy marriages. They are better than best friends, and are definitely not paired together strangers. My point? You both have a choice before you now. I don't know what type of relationship you had before, but you now have to both choose what type of relationship you are going to have tomorrow. The bible writes about two people becoming one flesh in a marriage, I believe this is the concept they were talking about.
Good luck.