Posted by:
RunnngMan
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Date: October 17, 2010 07:53AM
Grew up TBM in Utah and when I got into High School dated just one person the entire time. Of course when I turned 19 I left on my mission. While I was gone my girlfriend dated and made out with a lot of people. Anyway, the minute I returned from my mission she was ready to get married. I was so horny from not being with anyone for two years that I quickly forgave her and got married around three months later. Afterall, we are counseled to find are future wife quickly right. Well, I don't think this was the best advice and I should have dated others(I guess this is the churches stance as well). I now feel really resentful and jealous that I was not able to have the same experience my wife had during college. I seriously had little fun from the time I hit 18 years old. All work and college and having children finding my career. Fastforward another 16 years. I am 34 and I feel like I am having a midlife crisis. Severely depressed and starting feel old and boring. No friends or hobbies. It has always been about my wife and kids. Go to work come home go to work and come home. The same cycle over and over. I have been working out and getting in shape. Which makes me feel a lot better. Anyway, I my wife who is TBM is actully a really great person, and she respects my disbelief in the church. She still wants me to be fully active however. Anyway, I have this desire to be with or experience a relationship with other women. I feel horrible that I lost my youth and married so young, and did not party more when I was younger. I was thinking that maybe I would try and have an affair and get it out of my system. Find someone who wanted to have a little fun on the side for a few months. Am I crazy to even consider this? It might be hard to accomplish this living in Utah County. I was going to try out something like Ashley Madison. I really don't want a divorice at this time. Just the experience of something else Just wanted some advice before I dive into this. I think it might help me break up my depression.