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Date: October 30, 2010 11:51AM
Spent some time thinking, about my life, and I have come to some additional conclusions of what effect the mormon cult had on my decisions, and how my life has turned out.
I am a type a person and generally 'get her done" and expect perfection from myself and all others. I wass taught and threatened by the morg to "be yet therefor perfect, even as your father in Heaven is perfect". I tried with all my heart to please that cult and meet their ridiculous standards.
My patriarchal blessing said that my posterity would be great in number.
I am on my sixth marriage. I could find that girl perfect enough for me. I have 14 children. What the fuck was I thinking? When I think all of lives damaged, all of the money lost, and the chaos of 60 years of living, I'd blame mostly the mormon cult for most of the bad decisions I made.
Certainly I am inhuman, and I take full responsibility for having to learn for myself, and the general I've mistakes and more decisions that I have made. However, that cult made the mentally ill, and set standards that were outrageous. Between the cult, my personality, and the really important decisions of life that I made were centered around more in church.
I'm not angry anymore, but when I think in discover how much damage as churches tend to me as a person and how many lives I basically destroyed, I'm ashamed, embarrassed, and so sad. This church does not put family's first, or family's forever, or concern for any individual. They destroy families and people over the years. I paid tidying when I should have paid for the necessities of life for my large family. I dare Sunday school lessons and talked, mowed lawns, and went to the welfare farms, instead of going to my children's activities. I don't blame them, that they shun me, I'm so ashamed I'd lead them into this cult. I am so sorry for the damage that has been done, I'll take my share of the responsibility, but the cult also has to take their responsibility.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 10/30/2010 11:52AM by get her done.