Posted by:
jolene
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Date: January 14, 2011 04:42PM
I've been lurking here and posting a little here and there for about a year now. Thanks for being here - you all have made quite a difference. I've never formally introduced myself, so here's the brief rundown: Female, BIC, RM (Missouri, St.Louis), temple married, no kids. DH and I stopped attending church after being very active 3 years ago. We moved into a new ward and were just "flying under the radar" for a little while by not attending, but quickly realised we weren't missing anything and that in fact, the church was making us stressed out and unhappy. As sort of a New Year's resolution in 2010, we decided to be open and honest with our friends and family about not going anymore. We just basically said we were following our hearts and there was nothing to talk about. For the most part, the families have been respectful even though they disagree. We just refuse to talk about it. This year's resolution is to read 1 church related book a month. I hope to post monthly with my impressions and what I have learned from each book. Almost done with Mormon Enigma and I have learned more about church history in 3 weeks than I did in 28 years of church, 4 years of seminary, and a mission.
Need a little help from the board: We might be moving in a few more months and I really don't want to take our membership records with us and start over with the "do not contact" schpeel to new ward members. This has caused us both to think and talk a lot about resignation in the last couple of weeks. I started working on a letter using the links on RFM. I didn't expect to feel so emotional about it, but it is what it is... I am having a hard time with the line about understanding that this action "cancels the effects of baptism and confirmation, withdraws the priesthood held by a male member and revokes temple blessings". I just feel like I am giving them power that they don't have - I don't believe that they ever had power to give me blessings of eternal life or take them away. I feel like I am signing my name to something that could be used against me in the future or something... I don't know. Like I said, I was not ready for any of these emotions. Just looking for some encouragement, humor, chastisement for being a total wuss, ya know, the RFM board treatement I guess. Thanks for reading.