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lurker doccy
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Date: June 15, 2011 06:45PM
I am a UK semi-lurker. (i did post for a while)
I left the morg 16 years ago, and chose to leave it alone on the grounds it would leave me alone.
My wife remained as a dedicated mormon for the early years (nothing on sunday, day or rest etc)
Almost divorced, i had the two children (2 and 3 years old a the time) one on each arm walking out the door when she asked why we were leaving . Even then i couldent say "the damn church"...........it was hell.
Our children are now 16/17 and .....we are still together.
Over the years i banned the children from attending church in writing to the head of church health and safety in the uk. This is a long story involving peodaphilia in the local ward, lies, the church saying police were involved (they lied about that) and me doing a investigation resulting in ....well.....a long story !!
needless to say my wife was furious but i had cornered her. She couldent argue over their safety.
Over the years , My wife wouldent let it go, and turned around a couple of years ago with the usual "can the missionaries come to dinner"
I drew a line under it and said enough is enough. They wont leave me alone so lets open those old wounds.
My point about the lurking is this...... I have been coming here for a few years.
At first it was for support, stories, peer understanding and that essential mental condition "feeling normal"
This developed into a deep seeded "i want facts" so i lurk to get historical facts.
I read and research, and after two years, i would say i have a comprehensive understanding and timeline in my head of the church history and cult control methods.
So, like every good learner, i have used their methods on my wife.
Milk before meat sort of stuff.
Lets just say, she is now on the fence. Misses church on sunday and is now a relaxed person. In fact...... a different person.
My next objective is to get her to stop wearing garments, and i am close.
I could go on how i have de-programmed her for two years and i will say this to anyone thinking about it....., it is damn hard to de-convert someone without letting them know you are doing it.
Now when She asks questions and i can rattle the answers off my head.
But the Lurking was the key for me. i cant post because i see the same stuff over and over again, boyfriend nevermo, girlfriend mo, husband leaves morg, wife and kids dig in.
It really breaks my heart, and the simple answer is -- break up, divorce her etc..
But i cant say it.
I have struggled enormously with the morg, and i cannot even begin to say how many times divorce was the only path i could see.
My curiosity has turned to anger. the lies, the control, the manipulation.
It is a cult , an insidous cult that damages families.
Lurking keeps me sane, keeps me in touch and allows me to look through the glass at other people lifes without getting too angry.
Just to give you some highlights of my LDS life. And these are long stories......i could type all night ... These are in no particular order,,,,,
1) Lied, manipulated and controlled when i was in it. (EG Put on marrage guidance course to make up numbers and support people who needed it, and then found they had decided WE needed it and we were put on it for our benefit.)
2) bully boy bishop called and tells me how to run my life -- i leave church.
3) bully boy bishop takes money from good members in ward to fund ward building project. A couple in the ward had an autistic son who smashed house up, (some members take out loans for this)
4) bully boy bishop pays himself to do the work (fraud ,, oh yes, and grants were avaliable from the local council but then he wouldnt be able to do the work because he is a cowboy builder)
5) i am asked some 3 years later to go to stake and discuss this period of bully boy bishop with stake president --- which i did.
i gave him all barrells and asked him point blank why he did not stop the fraud.... i watched that man squirm.(long story)
6) daughters baptism at 8 years old (i am not asked for permission)
7) daughter turns 12 YW camp on agenda, I find out about peadophile issues in local ward. Phone church head office in UK.
Did you know they have special phones that cant recieve incoming calls ? especially when you demand legally to speak to a specific person. (long story)
8) constructed letter sent asking for child protection policies.
9) follow up - banning of children from attending
10) ban wife from working with children in local ward after i get abusive calls from a mother after a YW activity and my wife was there as a YW councillor.
11) demand bishops attendence, and get a grovelling man with regard to church health and safety.
12)threw pushy annoxious church members out of my home , i am now an abusive preisthood holder "who needs something done about me" ward council called and meetings held about me.
i could go on..............
I think ther best thing i achieved was getting the bully boy bishop sacked from his paid church job after i told the stake president about the fraud, which he continued to do well after leaving the bishop position. In fact, he got himself in the position of stake maintenance man. He picked and paid the contractors to fix the ward buildings.
He called me out of the blue saying "we can both make money out of this , i have set up my own business, i will sub-contract the work to you and then pay myself from the church funds for the job. "You make and i make."
I explained i was not insured, did not have my own business and was not registred. He said it didnt matter. he wouldent tell anyone.
I was so damn furious. This prick had scolded me in the church as a bishop , and was now on the take.
why he thought i would go along with it is beyond me..
Anyway, i am digressing again.....
i lurk because THE DAMN FUCKING MORG DOES NOT LEAVE ME ALONE.
It continues to be in the background... it damages...it eats away at sanity and drived wedges into families...
i have NEVER come across such a negative corporation.
sorry about the venting....and oh yes.... they did get me when i was down and vunerable....a difficult period in my life.