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Finally Free!
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Date: July 19, 2011 12:26PM
I'll throw my two cents in here... I was the one with the wife at home when I went to church on Sundays and on youth night.
Playing Devil's advocate here... There is *terrible* pressure on the person who is still "faithful" while their spouse is finding the actual truth.
I would suggest a couple of compromises or suggestions for a e-mail back to her:
- Tell her how you feel about what she wrote... i.e. it pains you that she is getting hurt while you are on your spiritual journey. Recognize her pain. While some people may not sympathize, it is real pain, it's scary, and it is a terrible place to be.
- Explain that you are and will hold to the covenants and promises that you made with her. You love her and always will (assuming that's true). You don't need to state anything about the church, in my opinion, since most people consider their marriage to be above and beyond any ceremony and there is an assumed covenant of love between the two of you whether stated in a ceremony or not.
- Assuming it's true, assure her that you are not mocking her or the LDS church by doing research. Yes, there are some web sites out there that do state mocking and negative comments about the church, but you are trying to find valid sources for real information and that, just like everything on the internet, there is going to be a mix and that you are trying filter though for the truth. Also remind her that the church has stood up to far more than a few people on the internet stating mocking things but, there is truth out there as well.
- Now the hard part (as if there was an "easy" part), because she's not going to want to hear it. Explain that there are some questions that cannot be answered by prayer. Even the church states that Faith without works is dead. You have to do research to find answers. There are valid things you can point to if you want (DNA evidence for American Indians not coming from the Middle East, the modern translations by non-church historians of the Book of Abraham for just a couple of examples). Prayer without doing your own work is not going to give you answers. Heck, they even state that you have to read the Book of Mormon before praying about it, in essence, doing research and meditating on it. You are only comparing "church supplied" history with non-church supplied history and doing the same "searching it out in your mind" test that the church so relies on.
- In as soft terms as possible let her know that if the church is true, shouldn't it be able to stand up under research? Shouldn't there be real answers to these questions beyond "it just feels right"? If the church isn't true, wouldn't you want to know. Yes, there is a lot of good associated with the church, but, if it's based on lies shouldn't that mean you should keep searching for truth?
- Let her know that this is your journey. You don't expect her to change her mind nor do you want to confront or force her into doing something she doesn't want. You're not going to come home one night and expect her to drink a gallon of coffee followed by a bottle of gin and sit around burning church literature. But that doesn't mean that you don't have questions that need answers, real answers not just that you feel good (because, I don't know about you but, I felt just as good after reading "The Lord of the Rings", but that doesn't make it true. I don't know if I'd put that in the e-mail, but it's a point...)
- Finally, Restate that you love her and understand that she may not be ready to face some of the questions that you have and that's "OK". You may want to talk with her about things, but if she's not ready, and you want to keep your marriage together, be OK with that. It's going to take time and care if you want to keep your marriage together.
Other suggestions might be to return the computer and/or iPad web-browser to a "neutral" website before putting it down or handing it over, so she won't be inundated with it. She knows your looking at it, but at least she won't be confronted with it.
If things get too bad, consider marriage counseling with a non-mormon counselor.
Hang in there. While I'm not trying to give false hope, it can get better. My wife and I stayed together the whole time we struggled with this. It can happen.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 07/19/2011 12:28PM by Finally Free!.