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Date: September 25, 2011 10:13AM
First time poster... for all I know, this thread will be removed before anyone is able to provide some insight to a heartrending situation going on in my life, because while it involves a Mormon (two of them, actually), I'm not one nor will I ever be, thankfully.
This will also be a wall of text. I didn't see anything in the forum rules about not doing that, but give up on the post once you're bored, I guess.
I recently ended a 5-year relationship with a man who is a Mormon. I was raised Catholic, but haven't being a practicing Catholic in many years. I do, however, have a strong faith in God.
Throughout the 5 years with this man, he hasn't had any involvement with the Church. We were a couple for the first 4 of those years. We "broke up" (for the 3rd time - yeah, I beat myself up about it more than anyone else can for letting it go on so long) in June of 2010, but remained friends (so to speak). I ended our friendship on September 13, 2011.
J is 27 (now). I am 49 (now). To make things worse than the huge age gap, we live 2500 miles apart. Long-distance relationships suck, even in the best of circumstances, but when one of the parties lies, denies, and avoids open communication with the other, it's doomed to fail. It was doomed to fail from the start in reality, but I loved him anyway (stupid me). I certainly never intended on falling in love with someone almost a year younger than my own daughter, or who lived so far away, or any of that. He managed to sweet talk his way through all the walls I'd put up and embedded himself in my heart.
Early on in our relationship, he spoke of his dreams of wife, kids, white picket fence... you know... the sort of dreams we all have as kids/adolescents. I didn't know very much about the LDS church, so I used to ask a LOT of questions so I could better understand him.
I won't go into detail about everything that went wrong in this relationship, but it was one filled with lie after lie after lie. He lied to everyone... his parents, his supposed best friend (his parents never found out about me until a couple days after I ended the friendship and sent his parents a letter detailing what a good little liar their son was), but worse, he lied to me, the woman he *claimed* to love, be devoted to, respect, etc. for those 4 years we were together. I caught him in many of his deceptions. I'm now very certain there are many I never managed to find out about and reveal. He kept promising me it wouldn't happen again, but of course it did. And I was foolish enough to give him another chance (and another, and another, and another).
The breaking point came two weeks ago. A & N (a married couple, A was Mormon, N never was - they'd been married for just under a year when all this crap hit the fan and really splattered), J & me were all friends. A left N, drove 2200 miles to be with J. Where A & N lived, she has to wait 6 months for the divorce to become final. She claimed the reason she and N were divorcing is because she "wanted the Lord back in her life and N wouldn't accept her religion" (maybe because N's religion is actually TRUTHFUL and A can't do anything but lie to herself and anyone who will listen to make herself appear more the victim).
If her TRUE intent was to get the Lord back into her life, wouldn't she do everything possible to NOT throw his commandments out the window?? ie, REALLY move back home with Daddy or even a FEMALE friend... not move most of the way across the country to move in with a guy she's never met in person just because he's the same religion she is???
Now, is it just me or is moving into the home of a single man, whether or not they're both freaking Mormon considering WRONG in the LDS church??? J, when asked by another friend, how long A was staying, said, "Hopefully for forever." J's parents know a married woman (aka cheating ho-bag) is living with their son, but it seems they don't have a problem with that because, hey, she's Mormon, she's appropriately aged, and even though they're returning to the fold (good sheep, nice sheep), isn't doing so based on so many lies as to the status of their relationship something that even the LDS church frowns upon (at least on the surface)?? Other than his parents (and only because I told them she was still/already married), no one else knows A is a married woman (Someone needs to make a Scarlet "A" and send it to her - and it won't represent her name, that's for sure). It's doubtful anyone where they attend services even know they're living together, although that will soon change, as N will be transferring A's records to the ward where she lives now, with J. Will the LDS church even blink an eye that they have an adulterous, lying dimwit in their midst? Somehow I doubt they'll even care one whit.
Why do I care if they are sinning with their words and their actions? Why do I care at all? I still care a great deal about J even if he has treated me poorly through the last 3 years I've known him (I'm nothing if not a great doormat for opportunists like J to wipe their muddy feet on again and again I guess). A, on the other hand, I have no use for. People who cheat on their spouses for whatever reason are the lowest form of scum on this planet, alongside murderers and rapists, IMO.
What makes it even worse, is J had been courting another Mormon lady for over 6 months till the convenient piece of a** (aka A) presented itself as an opportunity to jump (in more ways than one) on. Something awful had happened to this other Mormon gal and J told her "I'll wait for you, but not too long." Then less than a week later, told her "Sorry, I just want to be friends" even though he'd said again and again, "I screwed things up with her back in high school... I'm NOT going to screw it up this time." Sorry, J, but you REALLY screwed it *this* time with her.
To me, J is desperate to get married (which is sad in and of itself since he can barely afford to support himself, much less a wife and kids) and it seems as though he doesn't care *who* he marries as long as he can show her off to mommy and daddy (even if she is already married to someone else) because she's "appropriate" (a year younger than him and Mormon) and that somehow proves he's not a lying sack of crap loser boy.
I guess what I'd like your thoughts on, folks, is other than what must sound solely like a story borne of jealousy and/or bitterness, am I the only one who finds the whole situation of A & J's antics to be wrong in SO many ways? Despite all the lying that happens from the top on down in the Mormon church, are they REALLY that screwed up that they won't give a rat's bottom about supporting an adulteress and her boy-toy as long as they come back to the fold?? I'm bitter, yes, because as a human being, I feel I deserved to be treated MUCH better than I had been by J, but jealousy doesn't really enter into it. Everything about J A's relationship is morally wrong and based on so many lies.
As I told J when I ended our friendship, "Some bridges are worth burning. Too bad you and A weren't staked to the middle of it when it went up in flames." (yeah, I'm just a bit angry at all the lies J told me, the final straw being one that he told me A was "moving home, somewhere in California" until N (her husband) called me to ask me what J's address was because that's where N was to ship all his wife's stuff).
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 09/25/2011 10:17AM by ksg821.