Posted by:
wittyname
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Date: December 26, 2011 10:27PM
I'm so sorry. What a tragic story.
My opinion and advice might sound blunt and harsh, but I am saying it only out of kindness and concern for your well being, and for your kids' too.
Do not continue to push it with your sister, do not write her husband. If your sister experienced it and opted not to confront it, it is her problem, not yours. If the church refused to protect you while your father was alive, there's nothing your sister's husband can do. Keep in mind, we're talking about lay clergy, so he can't even help with comfort and coping.
Your father did a horrible thing, and you and your son have lived with it for a long time. You have to stop keeping that part of the process alive, and shift into acceptance and coping with your lives as victims of horrible abuse. That is a long and personal process you will both have to go through. But your sister validating your experience will not help you. It might not hurt, but it won't help.
I know in life we tend to focus on the small victories when our minds just can't process the pain of sorting out the war and ensuing battle wounds. I think focusing on your sister and her husband is a symptom of this. It seems like a quick fix, maybe a valve to release anger, maybe there's hope that validation will make the damage go away. It won't. Your sister is wrong and heartless for not supporting you then, and if I was in the situation, I would probably cut ties or distance myself from them. Anybody who has been the victim of abuse, specifically routine and secret abuse, ends up growing up with a need for validation in general (at least this is what a good shrink once told me, and once he did, all the dots in my life seemed to connect). I can understand why you feel the need to contact them, but you need to not. You need time, space and distance from them. You need to work on yourself, and so does your son. There's no amount of validation from your sister or her husband that will cure the result of what you have been through. And their constant refusal to even indulge you in the topic is just deepening your wounds.
Take care of yourself, find support, write your sister and stake pres bil off.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 12/26/2011 10:38PM by wittyname.