Posted by:
anonfornow
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Date: January 01, 2012 10:32PM
So. Grew up thinking I was straight, only dated guys. Had plenty of huge crushes on guys, thinking I was in love with them, etc., etc...but then whenever it would get sexual, I'd get uncomfortable. Sure, I loved making out, feeling close, having guys do stuff to me (but never oral), but never got off. When I started actually having sex, I only had one partner that actually satisfied me (still no orgasms), and I attributed it to his being older, etc. Every other time was painful and awkward. And I always ended up being with guys like this: (should be self-explanatory)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gFG7S-IgmQI was Mormon for a little while and considered myself bisexual in college without having any experience with girls at all. Then I had a few flings with women after a breakup and had my first orgasms with a partner ever. Now I'm in a relationship with a girl. Haven't had sex with a man in almost 2 years, and haven't hooked up with one at all in 9 months or so. I definitely look at guys, but it's sort of just a quick surge of hormones/passing attraction that I forget easily, and I pretty much never fantasize about them...ever. And I look at girls a lot more. I feel a lot more comfortable and like I can be myself with women...But I feel like I just can't do it. I'm worried that I just feel this way because I've had so much trouble with guys. Every time I see a straight couple, my immediate thought is "I'm not good enough for that" or "I'm not pretty enough to have a guy," or "I'll never have a picture perfect wedding/baby/husband/etc." So does that make me "straight?" Or just in denial?