Posted by:
anonymousgirl
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Date: January 06, 2012 01:41AM
...I thought it wouldn't happen again. She promised.
No hitting or weapons this time, just restraining me and not letting me breathe. I was begging her to get off me and just leave, please leave. She called me worthless and a whore. She only got up when I bit her finger. Then she took my phone so I couldn't call the police, but I followed her down to the front desk at my apartment in front of the security guard so she had to give it back.
I really thought I had found something. I feel like I'll never find anybody who cares this deeply about me again, loves me unconditionally, would put up with every mood, every flaw, every little weirdness, think I'm the most beautiful woman in the world. I don't think I have a soulmate. I feel like whatever divine power is out there has forgotten about me. And it's not like I can turn to my Mormon ex-friends to help. I couldn't tell them it was *gasp* a LESBIAN relationship.
I just wish that the one person who seemed to accept me for who I am deep inside didn't do this to me.