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Non Believing Dad
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Date: January 06, 2012 02:15PM
I had posted a few weeks ago about a dilemma I was having about my step-daughter’s looming temple marriage this spring. My tbm wife has told me I need to be there, it will cause major marital problems if I am not. All of the groom’s family is flying in and will be at the temple ceremony, my in-laws and adult children will be in attendance, and finally, my wife’s ex-husband and his wife will be there, so it leaves my wife without a spouse.
Many posters said I should lie to get the recommend since the church has been lying to us. Some people said don’t go, you will lose your integrity. So, after thinking about it I decided to be honest. I would go to the bishop and tell him I am worthy in every way (or at least I could be with time) to have a TR except that I couldn’t say that I believed the church was true.
I met with the bishop last night. Although I only go to Sacrament Meeting once a month so I can be supportive of my tbm wife, and I hold no callings, the bishop doesn’t know I am a non-believer. He is a nice guy, he is not a Nazi-Mormon at all, but he is a chatty and he loves small talk, a good people person. I got right to the point and told him I wanted to see if I could get a recommend for the upcoming wedding.
I went on to tell him I could answer all the questions properly except the “do you believe the church is the one true church and that there is a true and living prophet on the earth today” question. I took a deep breath, looked him in the eye, and very relaxed told him I didn’t believe the church was true, and haven’t for several years. He looked at me with shock. I knew the next thing would be his testimony thrown at me, but it wasn’t.
He wanted to know what I had read to get me to that belief. I actually wasn’t sure what the first hint was that I came across that helped me discover that the church wasn’t true. I think possibly the first thing was when I found out that Joseph Smith was a treasure hunter before he found the gold plates. I told that to the bishop. He acted surprised. He said he had heard that before but thought is was Anti-Mormon lies, and he wanted to know how I could be sure the information I was reading was not just made up fiction from enemies of the church. I told him that I found the best information from the church's own history. I mentioned the Richard Buchman’s biography of Smith, all written with the churches authorization. He hadn’t heard of that book.
Instead of trying to counter everything I said, the bishop seemed genuinely interested in what I had to say. He hadn’t heard of any DNA problems, or The Book of Abraham issue. He said he wanted to read about them. I asked him if he knew Joseph Smith had over 30 wives. He said no, he thought Smith had 2 or 3, but he was unaware of that many wives. I told him to go to lds.org, the church’s own website, and see with his own eyes. He wanted to read “In Sacred Loneliness” by Compton when I mentioned it to him and I told him I would loan my copy to him. He wanted to make sure Compton was an active member, and I affirmed that he was.
I told my bishop of how devastating it is to leave the church especially when all of your family believes in the Mormon Church, and I indicated that as a bishop it would be much harder for him, so I recommended he not start down the road I was on. He said he wasn’t afraid of history, he only wanted to know the history was accurate. I told him that the FARMS website was probably a good starting point.
The discussion went on for over 2 hours. I know he won’t remember all the resources I mentioned to him to seek, and maybe he was just trying to be a nice guy and act interested with what I was saying. He may have no interest in studying church history, time will tell, but I was pleased he was interested in what I was saying. Who knows, maybe one day he will discover the truth and join us here.
We finally made it back to the TR question. He said he didn’t know how he could give a recommend to a non-believer. I told him I could have lied about it and easily gotten a recommend, but honesty was too important to me. He said he knew there were probably ward members that had lied to him to get a recommend before, but he couldn’t do anything about it, so they go to the temple. He said he would need time to think about it, and we would chat in a week or so.
For now, I don’t believe I will get a recommend, which in a way is a relief. I haven’t told my wife yet, but when I know for sure that I won’t be at the ceremony I will let her know. It won’t be good for her, but it will either make or break our marriage. I keep remembering it is a family church of course. I’ll post my bishop’s response when I know.