Posted by:
Jesus Smith
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Date: February 02, 2012 03:49PM
In this thread,
http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,406361ktay, expresses frustration at wasting her childhood and young adulthood.
I remember feeling that way at first. But a few years later, I feel I got the better deal.
I am experiencing two kinds of life--the last one with a certain, strange yet wiser perspective. And with that wiser perspective, I get to reinvent myself and my life, as if I am starting over with the knowledge I had from a previous life.
Being a mormon certainly had its wasteful moments, but other types of life paths are equally or more wasteful.
Raised as a mormon, I got to experience what it is like to live life with a feeling of assurance that the world/universe was a known entity and that there was a supreme hand at the rudder. I had parents who really truly tried to be good parents. I got to experience what it was like to enter adulthood with wonder in magic and innocence of slowly developing my adult experiences. It was in a sense, a prolonged childhood without being forced to acknowledge that Santa isn't real. And at a time when one is riddled with self-doubts, I was given an unrealistic inflation of self worth that motivated me to achieve more significantly in my academic/personal life than I probably would have if I had been more carefree.
But now, I get to explore the other side of less-innocent life. To not feel guilt at personal decisions. I get to accept others without judgement and live a bit more carefree.
In other words, I understand both sides of the coin unlike most people.
I am extremely pleased with the outcome of my life.