Posted by:
imaworkinonit
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Date: February 19, 2012 12:18PM
I'm not always the best at thinking on my feet.
Someone does, says, or asks something outrageous, and I'm deer-in-the-headlights dumbfounded.
Two hours later, I think of what I SHOULD have said.
When I first left the church (about 12 years ago), I avoided people, especially in the neighborhood/ward. I didn't know how to deal with questions about why I left, and I didn't want to talk about it. When church stuff came up, I wouldn't say what I REALLY thought, and sometimes I didn't speak up when I SHOULD have. Sometimes I'm sure I gave the impression that I left because I was weak or lazy, because I just didn't want a confrontration.
But over time, it got so I could PREDICT what people would say, or what they would ask, and I could figure out IN ADVANCE how to respond to various comments and questions. I thought a lot about what to say in different scenarios, and it really helped me become more confident and prepared.
The truth is, that TBMs and many other people are rather predictable. They've been programmed with certain beliefs, stock phrases, and prejudices. As exmos, we basically know what to expect because we used to think the same way.
Families are often the same. We KNOW what to expect from our mother, or brother, or whoever. So we can often figure out in ADVANCE how to respond to whatever sh** they throw our way. Or decide if we want to interact at all.
It's kind of like little kids are taught to do, when they rehearse at school how to respond when someone bullies them or offers them drugs or alcohol. If you figure out in ADVANCE how to respond, you are able to control the situation and protect yourself from abuse.