Posted by:
FormerLatterClimber
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Date: July 29, 2012 12:00AM
Hi Everyone, I haven't posted in a while, but I'm back because my father (who has been abusive all my life) is dying from Alzheimer's. It was only a few years ago he nearly took my life in front of my little boy. I knew that this day would come, just not so soon...my response was prepared from the therapies I have been apart of, and when my sister called last week to say our mother wanted us to come give him our last respects, my prepared response went smoothly. She has decided to do the same thing: nothing. The last ten years, our narcissistic mother has done her best to ruin our lives, with our father as her attack dog and has been successful in some cases. My sister was almost successful in her suicide attempt a couple of months ago. We will not be attending a funeral. We will not have any contact with our mother, nor any of the flying monkey siblings. It just feels so weird that it's finally here. I feel relief, not sadness. And for that I feel guilt. All I can keep thinking of are memories, searching through them for one good memory. I can't find one. Feeling sad, no matter how much a parent hates their child, the child never stops wanting love from them. I guess I just needed to tell you all, could use some support. My heart is aching.