Posted by:
Gay Philosopher
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Date: January 11, 2013 10:12PM
Hello,
I'm sorry to hear about your difficult predicament, but in my mind, you deserve a real, fulfilling marriage, and I think that you and your children would be better off if you had one.
I'm also quite worried that your husband may have had sex with other males throughout your marriage, thus imperiling your health without your even knowing it. (But this is only speculative, and needs to be confirmed.)
The real question in my mind is this. If you divorce him, might he attempt (or commit) suicide--and if he did, could you live with that? Would it destroy the rest of your life? Or, what if you divorced him, he contracted HIV, and died of AIDS? Would you go through the rest of your life telling yourself, "If only I hadn't divorced him, he'd still be alive and safe!"?
Neither of you asked for marriage in the actual circumstances that you found yourselves. Your husband is gay. You're straight. The Church is fraudulent. But you are in this situation. Given the facts, what's the best option?
In my mind, unless there's good reason to fear that your husband would self-harm (whether through promiscuous sex with other males, by suicide attempt, etc.), then I think that you should go through with a divorce after talking with him. It's important to communicate and be honest about your needs, beliefs, values, and expectations for your own life. You deserve more than what you've gotten, and so does your husband.
It's difficult, but I urge you to take the next step toward your freedom, and happiness. Otherwise, as time passes, aging, itself, will rob you of options, and you'll always have regrets lingering in your mind: "If only..." and "What if I had..?"
Be strong. Stand up for yourself.
Life really is too short. You deserve joy.
Best Wishes,
Steve