Posted by:
cristib
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Date: June 09, 2015 03:03PM
WOW!
Some emotions are pretty raw, eh, Dafuq?
I have had to get some therapy for having been raped/molested.
I can fully understand the idea that the OP had issues thinking that she her purity and innocence is a trophy that others (specifically Mormon Men) would be willing to forcefully take from her.
It was ingrained into many a young woman, me too, that our purity was of highest value, it would be better to die than it would be to survive a rape. Imagine the horror of being kidnapped, though not raped, and having your own mother say, "I don't know what we would've done had you been raped." While you are sitting in the tub trying to scrub the 'filth' of the kidnapper off and remembering that you had been molested as a 3 year old, by a babysitter SHE had hired!
And, I found, way back when the dinosaurs roamed the earth...OK, in the 80's when I was on the dating scene, that it was really the Mormon boys who were so dead-set at trying to take my purity. Of course they didn't know about my molestation as a young kid, and they probably would have backed off a good arm's length if they had.
In fact, it was a non-member who told me that I had an unhealthy fear of guys over sex, because if he wanted sex, there were plenty of girls who would give it freely! And, most 'normal' men were more than willing to enjoy a gal's presence and personality without making sexual advances (until, later when things could get more serious, and only upon mutual consent). That was an eye-opener to me.
And, yeah, it was EVERY SINGLE MORMON MALE that I went out with that tried to make out, even on the FIRST date. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. I went on several dates with non/never Mormon guys, and NEVER had any unwanted sexual advancements... just dinner, a movie, sitting and talking, even road trips, NO SEXUAL demands. Though I did have one guy say it was time to move to the next level or break up, and because I was Mormon and still very influenced by my parents, we broke up.
However, to say that sex IS love. PFFFT! That is someone's twisted idea that may be coming from the pulpit itself! I remember one leader insisting that couples should never engage in intercourse except for procreation! UMMMMM.... Yeah, that doesn't work.
AND, yeah there are those that the whole sex act is "just for fun" and doesn't necessarily imply 'attachment'. I don't fall into that category either.
Oh, and another thing that us Mormon (and probably a lot of other conservative) Girls were (probably) inadvertently taught is that if our husband wants sex, you'd better give it to him. But if YOU want sex... too bad, bury the feeling, it is EVIL! That has hindered my relationships too. It is also along the errant thinking that IF a man has an affair, it is his wife's fault!