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Date: August 09, 2015 01:53AM
I procrastinate like crazy, especially on stuff I don't want to do. However, fortunately, once I dig my heels in and force myself to do it, I do some of my best work under pressure. This was especially true in school. (I was dynamite in Journalism, but had to burn the midnight oil to complete some of my best articles.)
At work, it was torture. My job demanded organized, linear thinking - not something I do even under the best of circumstances - but with constant interruptions (phone calls, new people to interview, etc.) it was awful. When I had a moment to breathe and drag a case file out yet AGAIN, it took me a few minutes to re-organize my thoughts on the case, and where it needed to go from there. And then there would be another interruption. . .
I don't do well with boring people, either. My thoughts tend to leapfrog way ahead of where they are going with what they are saying. I used to get in trouble in college by saying something like, "So where you're going with this is that. . ." (which pissed the professors off to no end, but was a relief to other students who were as bored as I was.)
I didn't know about ADD until my sons were diagnosed with it. My best friend, an elementary school teacher, had been telling me for years that my oldest son had it, but his father refused to listen and permit evaluation. He insisted that punishment would cure the distracted behavior. It didn't.(To this day, and my oldest son is 39, if something truly interests him, he can laser-focus on it for hours. If he isn't interested, it will go in one ear and out the other.)
When I realized that ADD was genetic, and that my husband didn't have it, it gradually dawned on me that I had it - and then I could begin to understand why my job and I were so terribly mis-matched. But by then, I had too many years invested in it to quit.
To this day, it takes every ounce of self-discipline I have not to fidget in a boring circumstance. That's one reason why I love the church we go to now. Our young minister is VERY bright, and his sermons always have elements of history, semantic theory, and other interesting stuff besides religion. He is NEVER boring. Once we had been attending this church well enough to freely express opinions, I told the minister, "Seth, your sermons are NEVER boring! You always bring in other elements and points of view, and give us material to chew on, long afterwards. I bet you got straight A's in seminary in Sermons I, II and III." He got quite a laugh out of that, but I said it sincerely enough that he knew it was a complement.
Poor impulse control is a hallmark characteristic of ADD/ADHD, and when you are bored, your first impulse is to get the hell out of there. If you can't, then the next best thing is to tune out. That can have consequences, too, unfortunately. This can lead to fiddling, drawing in the margins of your notes, toe-tapping, etc. Managers pick up on stuff like this in a heartbeat. It can get VERY bad if you are so tuned out that you don't realize they are talking to you. . .