Posted by:
HangarXVIII
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Date: September 30, 2015 12:02PM
For me, realizing and accepting the Morg was false is similar to the Matrix films. I don't question that I made the right decision by taking the red pill. I now live in a world that is much bigger and more complex than the Mormon bubble. I've had my eyes opened and I now see the church for what it really is-- a greedy, controlling, manipulative, lying, evil corporate empire. I feel true to myself and I'm happier as an exmo.
However, I sometimes find myself wanting the blue pill. I miss the blissful ignorance and believing I have all the answers. I miss some of the social interactions and having assigned friends. I miss having a good relationship with my parents and siblings who are still plugged into the Matrix (and no longer speak to me). Most of all, I miss the feeling that there is a loving God who actually cares.
Once taking the red pill, there's no going back. I made the right choice, but I can't help sometimes wanting the already-mapped-and-assigned course the blue pill had to offer. Does anyone else ever feel this way?