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dejavue
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Date: November 25, 2015 11:40PM
My mission was an adventure in many ways. I had never been outside of the tiny farming community where I grew up. Now, suddenly I was getting to go to a tiny country in Central America. The desperate and exciting possibilities came crashing down on me.
While on my mission, I met one missionary with whom I felt an immediate connection. We just seemed to hit it off and became instant friends.
Fast forward 10 years. I am home, temple married, children and the realization I needed to end my relationship with the church. Up until that time every waking moment, every penny had been devoted to the church. I needed a distraction to help me move away from the church and focus on something that would bring me and my family enjoyment. I decided to look at the world of horses. I had always enjoyed them from the time I could crawl and had developed my abilities to train and ride over the years. My family and I resigned from the church as our life's focus changed.
It worked and I focused on one particular, rather exotic breed, raising, training, trail riding and showing. My family all became involved and we got away from much of the interaction we had had with the church. The further away I got from the church the more clearly I could see the negative aspects of it.
My friend from the mission field contacted me. He had heard of my success with the horses and had bought into the same breed. He was excited to re-up our old friendship. I was equally pleased but I realized shortly that he was even more TBM than he had been while in the mission field where-as I was now on the other side of the pendulum. We exchanged occasional emails and I was careful to avoid discussion about the church or religion with him for about 10 years.
Then, last week, he emails me and asks for my telephone number. He is excited and wants to start visiting on the phone. From the many emails I had received from him, I knew he was pretty deep into the 'end of the world' type stuff (to which I never responded) However, now that he wanted to visit on the phone, I didn't feel comfortable thinking fast on my feet, dodging comments or hiding who I was or where I was but I did nervously acquiesce and send him my telephone number.
He called yesterday. I was busy and couldn't pick up so he left a wonderful, warm and inviting message requesting that I call him back. I thought about it for a day and then sent him this email. If you feel so inclined, please comment. I am interested to know reactions. Tnank you.
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Good Morning XXXXX,
It was a delightful pleasure to hear your voice on the answering machine. Words don't begin to explain the uplift and enjoyment I feel by hearing your voice and sensing your upbeat attitude. Thinking of you, I burst into a chuckle and smile of my own. I do look forward to visiting with you.
Over the years I have kind of looked at life in different ways, from different angles, one might say I have looked at up upside down. Through it all, I have changed in many ways. For one thing, I don't take it too seriously anymore. Somehow, I have concluded that regardless of the topsey turvey twists and turns, the ups and downs, the passion and the lack thereof, that the sun will still come out tomorrow. The clouds will come and go and life can still be good to me, for me.
I love the (name of horse breed) because they sometimes challenge me to stretch and go places that are beautiful. Especially, they have caused me to get to know some wonderful people better. I have come to acknowledge the sanctity of the differences we each have. The trails and the show ring experiences have helped me appreciate the different abilities and attributes of each horse and especially the differences in the outlooks and perceptions of the people. I have concluded that it's okay if people disagree with how I perceive I should live my life. I am okay with how they perceive they should live their lives and the beliefs they maintain.
Having said that, I hope you can find similar sentiments at this stage of your life. I want to enjoy an ongoing open,friendship with you and as we begin to explore and share more ideas and time together, it is my desire that we can be accepting of the different points of view each of us have. I may disagree with some of your conclusions and I hope you will be okay with that and remain confident that I still love you and want to be friends with you. I am sure there will be many points of similarity in our outlooks but most likely there will be some points we do not see the same on. On those, rather than feel the need to wrestle the points to the ground when they arise, could we, with smiles on our faces, simply agree we see things differently and that we both have valid points of view? I would prefer that our friendship continue to blossom with respect and love and avoid becoming judgmental or defensive.
I am sure you may be wondering where I am going with this discussion. I am wanting to share something with you that may cause you to be a bit concerned. Please know that I am at peace in my life and that I do not want nor see the need for interventions or 'saving'. I resigned my membership in the Mormon church as I no longer want to be affiliated with it beliefs or doctrines. I enjoyed my mission very much and have wonderful fond memories of you and all the other wonderful men and women I associated with during that time. If you would like to understand more about this, I am happy and willing to discuss it but want you to know that I can be supportive and understanding of those who are still active Mormons. Also understand that my decision was not made lightly and took me many years before I came to it.
There may be differences of opinions on many subjects at this time in our lives. Please, may we commit to continuing to be friends and not allow those perspective or differences of opinion limit or disallow our friendship.
It is my plan to return your phone call (or you can call me back when you have an opportunity) today. Mornings are generally better for me and will try to talk to you around 11:00. Looking forward to our exchange. Abrazos,' El Jefe de la Banda, XXXXX
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I did place the call. No answer and left a message. I think I have my answer but time will tell.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 11/25/2015 11:46PM by dejavue.