Posted by:
Elijah Unabel
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Date: December 12, 2015 05:16PM
Well, last night my wife and I had another one of our pleasant conversations involving the church, and as a result I didn't fall asleep until 5am this morning. It wasn't a heated discussion, but it just reinforced the fact that the church is a significant wedge in our relationship
One topic of our discussion was whether we would pay for our daughter to go on a mission in a couple years. I was adament that we should not for the following reasons:
1) It is optional for women in the church and does not carry the stigma that it would for our sons if they do not go on a mission.
2) I feel that our daughter would benefit more from getting her college education completed than going on a mission.
3) I recently got a new job and took a fairly significant (75%) pay cut so we wouldn't have to move. This decision was strongly influenced by considerations for my daughter (moving during her high school years, medical needs, etc.) and my wife's aversion to living internationally again. As a result, finances are a lot tighter and I don't see supporting our daughter on a mission to be a financially viable option without cutting into our investments. Since we now rely on investment income to make ends meet, cutting into those investments to fund our daughter's mission doesn't seem very judicious.
4) I know this is selfish, but I worked very hard (lots of hours and stress) to earn the money that constitutes our little nest egg. Frankly, it sickens me to think of even more of this money going to the church that continues to make my life miserable.
Given these considerations, and others, I don't think it is reasonable that we pay for our daughter to go on a mission. However, I view the money I earned as belonging to my wife as much as me - she made plenty of sacrifices so that I could work those long hours. Consequently, I don't feel that it is fair that I dictate what we can and can't spend money on. Additionally, my wife is planning on getting a full time job in a year or two to pay for my daughter's mission. While I am supportive of my wife getting a job that she finds enjoyable and rewarding, the job she plans to get does not meet those criteria. Additionally, we still have fairly young children at home, and a full time job would negatively impact our ability to support their multiple activities and fulfill their needs (to be clear, this is due to our unique circumstances and is not a judgement on women in the workforce). Again, if this were a job she would enjoy and find rewarding, I would be thrilled and totally supportive. However, it doesn't seem reasonable to me that my wife get a job she wouldn't enjoy and which would have several negative impacts on our family just to pay for our daughter's mission.
I could go on, but this post has already turned out to be much longer than I had intended. So, basic question, am I being unreasonable? Of course, I don't expect a lot of people in this audience to respond that paying for my daughter's mission would be a fantastic use of our money. However, from a relationship perspective, I do feel that maybe I should be more supportive to my wife on this issue. After all, she's still adjusting to the disappointment of being married to someone who won't be her eternal companion, and this relationship isn't easy on either of us at the moment.