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Finally Free!
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Date: January 25, 2017 09:17PM
First off, you aren't stupid. The church is very good at what it does. They want you to stay, they want you to feel a part of "something", everyone wants to feel like they "belong". The church is very good at making people feel like they "belong" as long as they believe like they do.
It hurts to leave a tribe. You become accustomed to attachments and the people you have there. The people who run the church know this, it's why they assign friends and encourage social connections inside the church (as often only in the church).
As hard as it is, you can make these connections outside the church. Often they are strong and better because, they aren't dependent on a belief system. When you make it clear that you don't want to attend the church anymore, it will become obvious that these people, with perhaps a few execptions, if you're lucky, are not your friends, they are friends with the church, and you both happen to go to the same one. From what I've been able to gather, this isn't always the case with other religions.
Here are my suggestions (not necessarily in this order):
- Stop going, each week, make a decision, decide not to go, it will get easier as the weeks go by. Fill your Sundays with something else, something that you find enjoyable.
- Do more research on the church, from non-LDS sources. You might be surprised at what else you find to help you make that first step easier. Some suggested resources I can recommend are
http://cesletter.com,
http://www.mormonthink.com, and
http://packham.n4m.org/#MORMONISM These were a great help to me in understanding just what the church was teaching and it's history.
- The people who run this site suggest not joining another religion for at least a year to allow your head to clear and untangle itself from what mormonism has done to you. I think that's wise. It also gives you time to research and learn about what you're looking for and not jump to the "next thing" think of it like what happens after you separate from a long time companion, you don't want the next group you join to be the "rebound" group and end up feeling like that was a mistake.
- Find groups that fit your hobbies. I took up knitting (I'm a guy, so it was a little weird at first, but the knitting groups I've attended have all been extremely fun and welcoming). Meet people outside of the church. It's healthy and fun.
- Find a scout troop outside of the church for your husband and kids (or better, find a scout like group that's more accepting than Boy Scouts). I think they will find that they enjoy them more and it'll probably fit their needs better. It will also help cut those ties better too.
I was "born in the church", a returned missionary and spent a long time untangling myself from the church, it's not easy, it can hurt and the church keeps trying to get their claws back in you. I hope you find help... Keep posting questions here and feel free to vent too... It can help to know that you're not alone in this.