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ificouldhietokolob
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Date: October 06, 2016 03:46PM
Born in SLC, my family (parents, older brother, and I) lived in a duplex. The other side of the duplex housed my great-grandparents on my mother's side. My earliest (and fondest) memories of childhood involve them, including sitting on grandma's lap watching black and white TV coverage of JFK's funeral, while she softly sobbed. I was just short of 4 years old.
About a year later, I came home from school one day, and headed over to their house to get a snack as usual. As I went through the gate that separated our back yards, I saw a pair of legs among grandpa's rose bushes, which he tended enthusiastically. I thought he might be laying in the dirt, digging new spots for plantings. As I got close, though, I could see he was face-down, and at an odd angle, and it didn't look right. I went over and pulled on his shoulder to raise up his face, and blank, unseeing eyes stared back at me. I started to cry, and ran to grandma's house. When she asked me what was wrong, I told her grandpa was dead. She made me stay in the house, and she went out back. A few minutes later she came in, not a tear in her eye, and calmly called the police (this was way before 911!).
She sat down with me, hugged me, and said I was right -- grandpa was gone.
She'd spent 78 years with this man. They loved each other to the end. He was 99, she was 94 at the time. She didn't tell me he'd gone to a "better place" or any such thing, she just said that it was his time, he'd lived a long and good life, and not to cry -- but to remember how much I'd loved him, and he had loved me.
She handled it so well (he'd had heart problems for a while, it's not like it was unexpected). She knew he was "ready." She helped me not fear dying, but to cherish living well. And to be satisfied after a long life that you'd been a good person, raised a good family, and made some small mark on the world.
Nine years later, as a teenager, I was at her bedside when it was her time. Lots of relatives visiting. I took my turn, held the slightly cold hand of this wonderful woman I'd loved all my life, and told her: "It's OK, grandma. It's your time. I won't cry. You lived a good and long life. I'll remember how much I loved you, and how much you loved me. And I'll miss you." I'm not sure she heard me. It probably doesn't matter if she did or not. It was her time, and she left a legacy of love and a life well lived that I still cherish.
BTW, though they were officially LDS, and temple-married, they were both "jack." Drank coffee, never went to church, didn't care about it. My mom, though she cared about them, considered them a "poor influence" on us kids. She was so wrong...