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hurting
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Date: March 31, 2011 01:24AM
I'm not as upset by dollars wasted in tithing, or hours spent in pointless church meetings, or time wasted in church callings, even though that does anger me.
What I'm most upset about is that I BELIEVED it all. No, not just believed, I KNEW it was true. I KNEW Joseph Smith was a prophet. I knew the "church was true." I knew it. It was a fact for me, one I lived and breathed. THAT is what really gets to me. That emotionally and mentally, I was in so deep that I would have given everything I had for the church, including my life.
And it was all a lie. All a fraud. A disgusting fake. God, how do I "recover" from that knowledge? When will it stop hurting so badly to know reality?
And all those people, still believing it, still "knowing" it? I hate that I can't save them from it. I hate the mormon CULT