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Beth
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Date: December 05, 2020 04:14AM
ARGH! I just have to do the stream of consciousness thing. I'm just going to write how I talk. Maybe subjects and verbs will agree. Maybe they won't. Maybe verb tenses will remain the same. Maybe they won't. Let's see, shall we? Okay!
In middle school, three of us shared albums. We pooled our money for Pat Benatar and passed the album around. We didn't live near each other. Kim was in Wynnewood, Lea was in Havertown, and I was in West Philly. So we'd carry the album to school and pass it around when we remembered to bring the album to school. We didn't have allowances, so we babysat or cat sat or water the plants sat, and sometimes we passed around the sitees' albums like "Thick as a Brick."
I used to take two buses and the El to get to school. It took *forever*. The only cool thing was that I would pass a record store in the 69th St Terminal, and sometimes I'd go in and look at the devil music record covers.
I think my mother and I had already destroyed all of her albums that weren't of a religious nature. I don't remember us melting and breaking mine, so I'm pretty sure her records were gone when I started buying my own. It took me about two months to buy "Dirty Deeds." I was *terrified* that my mother would beat my ass, destroy my record, and then beat my ass again. She went through my stuff very, very thoroughly. Eventually she found it, but I guess she was at a different level of piety when she did - she thought "Big Balls" was hilarious. We bonded over Big Balls. Bizarre.
Lea was Catholic and Kim was Baptist, so there was no way in hell they were bringing any AC/DC to their homes. I had "Paradise Theater," "Central Heating," and all of DEVO's albums. I can't remember what Lea and Kim had, but I *do* remember when Lea bought "Breakfast in America" ON TAPE!
What the hell, Lea? My tape player looked like a beat up version of this:
https://imagescdn.juno.co.uk/full/IS717533-01-01-BIG.jpgThe hell? Lea? Why did she have to go fancy on us?
There weren't enough children to sit on for me to afford a Walkman and then Boom! It seemed like four Police albums came out at the same time: "Outlandos d'Amor," "Zenyatta Mondatta," "Regatta de Blanc," and "Ghost in the Machine." That's too many albums to be toting to and from school. I begged my father for a Walkman until I got one. I probably had to guilt him into it. I'm not ashamed.
So. Cassettes! Walkmen! Police! Prison!
When I was 16 and my baby brother was about three months old, my stepfather was arrested for skipping out on bail in Virginia several years earlier. He was stopped for some sort of traffic infraction, he didn't have a drivers license, he was functionally illiterate - a HS grad yet illiterate - they ran his name, and Hello! Off to Graterford!
(Looking back, I think he didn't have a license because he'd go to jail if he tried to get one, but I just went on what my mother told me. I think she also dreamed about teaching him how to read.)
Anyway, I've got this infant brother who's 16 years and 13 days younger than me, a laid-off mom, and a felon stepfather and I'm like WTF is going on here? Where are the adults? Although I probably didn't ask myself where the adults were because they'd been MIA for *years* and unlikely to return.
My stepfather was being held in Graterford, and my mother worked the phones and her connections like crazy trying to get him extradited to Virginia ASAP. Graterford was that. bad.
I have to stop here and say that my stepfather never, ever laid a hand on me or said anything mean to me. He was the only person in my life who told my mother to stop hitting me. In the face. He told her to never hit me in the face, which I guess is better than no one telling her not to hit me at all, which was how things basically were. No one cared. I have no beef with my stepdad. Plus he's dead.
So, stepdad went to god-knows-what prison in Virginia, and I slogged through my junior year of high school. I was going to a different school closer to home, and I babysat my ass off in addition to taking care of my brother after I came home from school. Mom found under-the-table gigs here and there, and once in a while she went to Virginia. I remember going down with her right after my stepfather was extradited to Suffolk. We saw him in the county jail. Then away he went. (All of this will matter later.)
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Edited 4 time(s). Last edit at 12/05/2020 05:02AM by Beth.