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Date: October 28, 2021 06:08PM
I think if this whenever people tell me my folks meant the best:
https://youtu.be/JDTnPxekoxoAnnalisa had a personality disorder. Her parents thought she had a demon. How did it get to this point that it inspired one of the most successful excorcism movies of all time? Well, she loved her parents, imitated them, convinced herself she was possessed, they reinforced it because they were bigoted ingoramouses — sorry, I’m mean pious and devout people of faith — and everything went downhill from there. Her parents loved and her and meant the best. Nobody wants to believe that because the outcome is so horrible, but it’s true. What loving parent wants their kid to be possessed by devils? A loving parent would do anything to save their daughter’s soul even if it’s too late for her body.
I am not DID. But I was sucked into Mormonism pretty hard. It exploited my weaknesses. I made me sing and dance like the happiest Mormon even when I was anything but. I want to know how I tick. It interests me. Also, talking about this stuff does not feel awkward to me anymore. I’ve been swimming in awkward soup for a long time, and had I never said anything to anyone about my subjective experience, I would still be Mormon mind slave if I was still on earth anymore at all.
I wish American notions of good parenting included an obligation to keep it real with the facts, with objective reality, where the child’s welfare was concerned. I’m ok today, because I’m pretty smart despite my challenges and I pulled through but there was a time I was not ok and there are other stories like mine that end tragically. I think about Mr. Eliason, the father of the Idaho boy that killed himself over just masturbation guilt. I’ve met other parents of similar suicides in person. None of them make the argument that they were just doing their best: just the parents of the kids who narrowly avoided that fate say that shit as an ass-covering excuse for let ecclesiastical dictation overrule their own common sense. Unfortunately we live in a country where churches and cults have a lot of power and legal leeway via the first amendment, and historically they’ve gotten away with murder and child rape. They still do, actually. Parents consent to the conditions that allow these abuses because these religions make it feel like the best thing to do.
I know my parents meant well, but I was objectively not well. I think there are many Mormons who are kept from good mental health counseling only because they know not where to find it, and mine was just a tad more extreme than usual because of an undiagnosed disorder or two. But that’s not the say the typical Mormon experience of psycho-sexual development is a healthy one generally.
I spoke with an old friend who I had tried to baptize on my mission. She’s a master of psychology now. She’s got two masters and she’s finishing her PhD. She works with inmates in her local penal system. She told me that when they gather statistics on mental health they deliberately identify and dismiss the Mormons because they skew the data towards the negative end that badly. On the surface that’s comical, but then it breaks my heart to think there’s people that feel anything like what I was feelings at the height of misery and before my turnaround. But statistically, there are hundreds of thousands of people like me in the church right now who will never get the help the need because Mormon culture is antagonistic towards any science or professional who challenges the idea that bad feelings are a sign of sin. That ought to be criminal.