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Date: April 12, 2011 10:54PM
My mom came over for dinner tonight. Out of the blue the church was brought up, just offhandedly, and somehow it turned into a heated discussion...the first one we have had about the specific reasons I left the church.
I brought up Joseph Smith's wives and specifically Helen Mar Kimball. She didn't believe that he married a 14 year old so I showed her on familysearch.org where it lists Joe's wives and then I clicked on her name and showed her birthdate and date of marriage.
So then my mom said I couldn't prove that he had sex with any of his wives. I asked why he would marry them, then? She said, "To give them the blessings of the covenant." I said, "Well, a lot of them were already married. Why couldn't he just seal them to their husbands?" She said, "I don't know, but I don't think he had sex with them."
Then she went off about "Why are you so angry about the church, why can't you just let it go?" I explained that I was going through a process of recovering from mormonism and I was pretty much in the anger stage all the time.
"I am angry because I thought the church was god's true revealed gospel and to find out it was all a fraud started by a con man is pretty damn upsetting!" At that point I started to cry.
My 13 year old brother who has also left the church (as much as a 13 year old living with TBM parents can) and my boyfriend were shocked by this display of emotion. Actually, they were shocked I was talking about the church with my mom at all. My mom said, "Okay, you're in the anger stage, I can understand that. But why are you trying to shove all these reasons you left down my throat?"
I said, "Well, you raised me mormon, you taught me a lot of church things growing up, so to find out that none of those things were true, well, I thought you should know." (I am a little bit of a smart ass...).
She just laughed.
My brother said, "Mom, do you think Dad would leave you if you left the church? I think he would." (Yeah, he's a smart ass as well).
My mom said, "No, of course not."
It was a very strange conversation. I think it went well, (although my grandmother did come in screaming about how stupid I am and how I believe any old thing I read on the internet).
I think my mom is not as strong a believer as she used to be, and I think my brother might have a point.
It seems like she is hesitant to accept certain aspects of church doctrine (like polygamy), but eager to accept others (like being with family after death), which is completely understandable. I just wish she could find a more mainstream church that wasn't sexist, racist, or homophobic.