Posted by:
The Man in Black
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Date: April 25, 2011 12:58AM
Forgive the emotion in my post tonight R.F.M. I'm usually funny. Tonight I'm slightly P.W.I. Thanks Timothy, I've had a little too much of the good stuff tonight. SL Cabbie no worries, I'm already at home, nobody needs a ride.
Tonight I recall the day my best friend died. He was a good friend. He loved me, I loved him. There were no conditions in our friendship. There were no, "you be this" and in exchange, "I'll be that" and then we can be friends if it's socially acceptable. He didn't care who or what I was. I didn't care who or what he was. He was my friend and he loved me back. The relationship was purely platonic. We were best friends. I was a man. He was a dog.
My dog taught me all I'll ever need to know about love. Love (real love), has no conditions or expectations. Love will wait for you all day just to see you for a few minutes. Love doesn't care what you are, who you are, or what you did that day. Love, (or if you prefer the Mormon definition), "charity," does not give a flying shit about anything other than you. Real love loves you no matter what. Real love has no strings, no requirements and no pretense. Real love, in my experience, is the love of a dog.
I know of only one instance that Napoleon Bonaparte was recorded by his soldiers to have wept. It was when he saw a dog who would not leave the corpse of his dead master, and the dog howled day and night for his lost friend. Even a man who crowned himself emperor, killed tens of thousands, and defied all authority but his own, knew real love when he saw it; and he saw it in a dog.
I recall the day my dog died. I lost my best friend that day. He was my friend from junior high to college, most of my adolescent to adult life. He died when a speeding car hit him. He died quickly, and I'm glad for that.
My T.B.M. mother tried to keep this knowledge from me for years. "He must have run away," she said. "You might still find him someday," she said. She knew the truth. He had been killed by a speeding car. The bastard even got a citation for it. She lied to me. He (my dog), never lied to me.
Why did mom lie to me? I'm sure her intentions were good. But her intentions are irrelevant. Lies do harm. Truth, no matter how painful, is better than to tell lies.
Ten years later I wish I could have buried my best friend. I could have if she had she told the truth. Ten years later, I wish I could have said goodbye to him. I could have had the truth been told. Ten years later, the lie still hurts a lot more than the truth would have. I wish I had the chance to say goodbye to my best friend.
Damn the lies, and damn Mormons for thinking lies do not harm.
As I see it, love means honesty. Even if honesty isn't pleasant. Even if love comes from a tragedy or bad news. Even if the most honest person you ever knew wasn't even a person but a dog. Honesty is love, at least to me.
Dear old friend, you have no eulogy. You have no tombstone. There is no memorial to honor you. Lies prevented that. This post is the best I can do for now. Someday there will be a headstone with your first name and my last name on it. I love you old friend. You showed me real love. I miss you even now. You taught me what love really is. May you be known for what your were. You were honest. You were incapable of anything but honestly, May this be your eulogy. You were a good boy.
I have no doubt, that all dogs really do go to heaven. Because if dogs don't, nobody will.
In the name of whatever the hell is really God, Amen.