Date: March 14, 2018 12:42PM
You sir are taking a very dangerous risk in not keeping your mouth shut about the Church until you have graduated from BYU and gotten a copy of your official transcript. Before you open your mouth or read anything else I suggest you read http://www.chadhardy.com/byu
and learn how brutally evil the BYU administration truly can be. Then I suggest you shut up, tell pretend for a few months, and then
One thing to keep in mind is that YOU are not the one who changed. You are still the same person who was taught to be honest, learn, and all those good things that the Church actually does teach. Who hasn't been honest is the Church and their dishonesty started long before any of your grandparents were born. So don't blame yourself. Don't apologize. Just use this remaining time to get your degree, prepare yourself for med school, focus on the well-being of your marriage & other relationships, and live your own life.
Best wishes to you. Yes it sucks to have to pretend. But think of the consequences of what could happen if you don't for just a few more months.